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i need you.

Saturday, April 07, 2007

you dont know how it feels when one says out my inner thoughts without me uttering a word. yes, thats my brother. i'm so grateful to have this family, i really unsure what will happen to me if they are taken away.

each word i explained to him triggers my tear. but i held these tears within me, i shan't cry over spilled milk. one thing that he said was right, i was the one who allow such situation to be possible. i never learn to protect myself because i'm always too trusting. it feels really good to have someone who understands me so well and not having prejudice while he trys to make me feel better. it was really scary to always having myself to accept your biased judgement. objectively, u've no wrong and momentarily, i believe everything is predestined. if it was arranged to be in this way, nothing can change the outcome, maybe all can be altered is the process. a sudden enlightenment dawns on me. if u need to try so hard to prevent and yet the outcome remains the same all these while, it says u should just stop trying.

i blog this time because i felt really really consoled to know my brother knows me so well. and my family always know when i'm sad. maybe some will say because i'm too expressive and emotional. but yet again, not everyone spot it and that may include you. i feel safe when i'm with them. i always thought you are just like them, even when you said i could be myself before you, even when you said u like who i am, things just occur in the reverse. time says for everything and our affinity is only this much, i guess i can only wish for the best for you from now on.

san signs off. 11:03 PM
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p r i n c e s s . s a n 3


life's too short to devote time dwelling over irreversible facts.

in my life, I wish upon eternal happiness with all my loved ones.

a bonus will be to see myself at the top of my career in another few years' time.

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