Full of inspiration yesterday, thought of putting down my opinions in words.
Haaa..logging off my brudder's account and into mine, hmm, reluctance overwhelmed. A task too draggy for me to even accomplish.
okay crap, just being slothful. Lethargic me, drained after work, though it's not abit tough in contrast it's SO slackish; guess getting up when the sky is still dark drains me. Yes, that's it, san hatessssssssssss waking earlyyyy. ;( *sulks*

Was saying i'm inspirated to blog right..
But now, not a clue of those thoughts that ran in my head yesterday.. How weird huh~~
I remembered it was pretty interesting..Revolving around human nature..
Anyways, i've clean forgotten about it.
Till I recall........

Long weekends ahead! WOoOHOOoo <3>
saturday, sunday plus monday!
24hrs x 3days = 72hrs - 4hrs (my 1/2 day work) - 3hrs (my travelling time) = 65hrs - 8hrs (he's working on sunday) - 1hr (his travelling time) = 45hrs
oh mannn..less than 2days to hang out with himmmm.. ;(
that's when I will reinforce the fact WORKING DOES SUX!
yeah lahh, it generates income, it reduces our idling time, it may be easy (for me, haha, so slack!) it puts our life into a different phase and perhaps still bounced back to the fact we need CASH!
Else, even there are tons of justified reasons, I will rather not to work.
Yes. It's for money sake. It's for our shopping spree. hMmmm.. job satisfaction may be an element as well ;)
ehhhh sound contradicting here~ the point is I wish I could be lazing around, and that isssssss if ONLY , i repeat if only, dearie honey is with me.... awwwww... visualising it melts my soul sweeten my heart ^-^ which turns out to be alll not possible. Nothing lasts forever, don't take me wrongly, as in no one can stay beside you 24/7. Nevertheless, he can stay in my heart ever..And his and my status shall remain still ever and ever and ever ever ---3359---

OH YESH! did i mention.......
3359 strike 4D or izit Toto? haha, i can't differentiate..it's lottery!
Starter somemore, hee
previously, 3539 struck in consolation, not exact numberrr lah but at least all digits were IN!
that's how auspicious our numbers are.. MUACK!
sadlyyy he didn't buy any, there goess the prizeee...........

my colleagues here are my pulling strength, letting me don't dread reporting to work *smilEs*
see how significant they are. the more people, the livelier it will be ;)
so don't belittle their power-NESS! hee

Lunch time in minutes............

More gradnite pics from euneun junie and indirectly from jingqing ;)

exhilarated thinking about developing them tomorrow!

And one thing I gotta confessed. I missed the year one clique of mine. If Jun Eun Jia & I could be in the same class throughout the 3years, that would be marvellouss.
Just a thought :)

Oh mannn~~have been ages since san last blogged huh~
kekee.. *swept away all cobwebbies*
Here getting rusty and san is definitely deteriorating, becoming a lazybUM! *shakes head*

Last few days, hmm..
what should I highlight?
of course it's my graduation nighttttt! Check out the photos under my links yeah!! :)
Everyone was stunningly beautiful gorgeous attractive, hahaaa that refers to the gurls only!! ;P
for the guys, hmmm..nothing really special~other than seeing a stranger (never seen him b4 in school! amazing) caught my attention with his panda outfit, even his feet was slipped into a panda flurry slippers! And there was one dressed up as Slash?! Another was a devil in a hot red suit with the fork thingg, which I can't recall what it's known as..hee
Their outfits really sparked the whole event, else it might get alittle boring. They were from the mass comm, that explains their vigourrrrr *thumbs UP*
I lurve junie!hahaa..she was my kaki for makeup and hairdo~ everything was nicely done! we even took neoprints! So weird rightttt to see two elegantly dressed gurls, posing in a neoprint kawaii shop..oh myyy..hahaa but who cares!!? We don't even give a damn, just wanna waste time and get our pretty faces stamped on these stickers ^-^ and junie took her own sweet time to decorate our images, she lurves engaging in these sorta activities *BIG MUACK FOR YOU*

Saw amanda, she looks refreshingly sweet! Jia, you look beautiful too, ya not casually dressed!!
hui eun jingqing noricam these four were awesome! they dressed so moulin-rougely! :)
lazy to put the photo here, go to the link and see okie *blushes*
laine, this gurl is always pretty, and of course elegant that night is for sure. *smiLEs*
talking about my junie, she and her curls were awesome!
To conclude, everyone was just great that night..
Seated at table 13 with junie eun hui and gang. 13 is unlucky?think againn..
San went up to stage for some silly act, jingqing brought home a sound system *1st prize* and euneun walks away with a iPod shuffle *3rd prize* how luckyyyy..TAlking about only 6ppl in a 10-seater table, that's LUCKY :)

The night marked its end at coffee express with the gurls.
Sweetest of all, my darling drove me home.He was unexpected by me, someone who value sleeping time so much, sacrificed it that night for me. To me, it meant alot and it really closes the night's curtain sooo soooo pleasantly. Biggest comment was to hear from him, "you were simply gorgeous"
love youuu honey

That was wednesday, 20th Apr 2005.
Friday applied leave to return school for a post-itp talk.
Thereafter, junie lei joyce & pz along with me went kbox for a pathetically 3hrs singing. The service that day was an ultimate turnoff!
Got home to catch hei ye cai hong's last episode.
And that's about it.

23rd Apr, saturday.
Worked halfday till 1230pm then joined tennis peeps at sentosa.
nana benny & I were terribly late! hee..anyways, dearie fetched me at outram.
His back was hell aching, went for a gua-sha. His back was all blue-black-ly bruised.
poor him, didn't sleep well I reckon. Me too, whenever he moved, I'm startledly awakes.
Heard from him that his back is not so painful now. :) perhaps bandaging his waist tightly does ease some pain. Yeah lahhh..you are smart you are smart kekeee..

That's all :)

still uploading the pics up, a moment moreee..
be patient!

junie, all your pics are in as well ^-*
waiting for pics from eun junie manda andddd..jingqing!! hee

Tomorrow's GRADUATION NIGHT!

HURRAY~!! ;)

First Day at Taisei. :)

A nice place I would say. 8 out of 10, if you were to ask me to grade. ^-^
Nice people plus favourable working environment.
Anywways, nothing much to comment.

Why I can blog?!
'coz I'm literally smacking houseflies now~~~ =p
the senior mentioned that it's pretty slackish at the beginning and end of month, which NOW happens to coincide HEE *naughty face*

2more days, it'll be my long awaited graduation night. My first prom night, mind you! Getting old already, by hook or by crook, MUST get involved at least onceeeeeee, elsee.. hmmm..else school life seems kinda too bland, isn't it?
AND the dampening part is, I'm not dressed customing to the theme - Moulin Rouge. Firstly, I've NO TIME. Secondly, I'm financially tightttttt, and I mean suffocating-TIGHT. :( how saddd.. Gonna compensate that with more accessories.
Gonna get a necklace after work. Supposingly meeting eun, due to the fact that I'm told to go home earlier, so yeah san is a good gurl.
necklace necklace necklace, don't fail meeee..let mee spot a nicee and sparkling one with diamond studs on the pendant will look marvellous!Plus a flowerY brooch on my black elegant night dress...oOooo..yes will look good! hahhaaa *skin thicken-ingggg*
But the sian-EST thing is, i'm working the very next day. so can't go havoc, my dearie shall be chauffeuring me home that night. seeing him is to recover my smileSssss =)

getting exciteddddddd

honey, meeting you tomorrow right..study hard yeah, tuesday shall end all your notes-nightmare! *muAck*

saturday having an outing at Sentosa with the new tennis batch. FUn timE..!! Rawk on baby~ hee..

san is no more jobless!

I GOT THE job. :) . (: . :) . (:

the agent called,"you got it! the boss is willing to take the gamble."

heee..just in case you didn't understand what's the gamble, betting me to work more than 3mths.Oh my, im hilerated! ^-^
choosing sansan over an option, who could fit the bill of performing 6mths duty, that's something worth a celebration.

That would definitely cease all motherly nags. 'coz i'm finally earning more than peas.
told you olive's an bad beginning *argh*

still, i wish upon sun, moon and stars
LET ME GET INTO NTU
3mths of work is sufficient.

If one could stay alive
and his/her obligation is to discover pleasure of life
and these long buried pleasures had camouflaged in blurred visions of thousands and millions of workaholics
then I really think it shouldn't be such a case, just to add on, this so called obligation was, tragically, forgotten by too many people.

Everyone work for the sickening sake of money. All of us reckon the fact "money is not everything" but....everyone slogs their life for it. Contradicting people cook up senseless excuses and they thought it is more than righteous~~~~~
Standards of living repels all dark sides to rule over those little angels in us. Human goodness? oh please. Human is the scariest devil on earth, that's being clean to our conscience. Don't shake your head there, if you are, 'coz all of us are of one common breed. The world nurtures us to be who we are now. We work more than we play. No more like the posters we used to paste on our classroom's wall, "WORK HARD, PLAY HARDER!"
Schooling days, we always thought we are old enough to make decisions and all choices are in our hands, not even our parents could object, when we are perhaps only 10yrs old?? Now come to think about it, it's not our parents who can't object, it was they who spare us a chance to make a choice.
Working days? Ohh..if you are anticipating for similar treatment, then guess you need a bucket of water over your head to level up the snobbish brain. We are sitting on fat fat hope to think everything is in our hand. 'coz it's not. Some born with silver spoon, big fortune ahead. Some born with talents and brain, simply there's no worries for you. Some people's lives always bump into ms lady luck, gets envious and jealous helplessly.
Hmm, which of the above you belong to?
If neither, toil your life away like every commoner does.
Fluky enough, you may love your job just like the way you worship sylvester??
hahaa~ or place bets on striking jackpot or 4D?
Yes, you might be the carrying 1st prize home........
I'M JABBERING NONSENSE.pardon me

ntu do you want me? please donnnnnn't desert meeeeeeeeeeee :(
job hunted a job at bishan, $1600 worth. A japanese company, taisei corporation. The boss seems to like me.He needs me to work for 6month, when I could only promise for a 3month contract.he's still considering though he has options other than me.the agent said he likes me, he prefers the energetic me to a studious option2.
He brings alittle hope, proving my worth again.Regaining confidence i've lost at olive's.
maybe i should smile huh~ *smilEs*

I wanna go sunway with junie lei and qiqi~~ sorrie gurls, I doubt I can make my way there. Cash frozen in bank and i've no access to it.I'm not dependent on my mum but she's over-protective! sorrie gurls..even thought of what bikini top to buy, and now........you guys have fun~
plus gil, that makes four of you even. ;) *sansan sobbing awayyy*

really very stressed up by my motherrrrrr..retreating somewhere not in sg also so difficult, life is sucky for me.2005 is not auspicious. Lousy internship experience said it all. Bad beginning, how do you expect to have an applausing ending?! *sansan sulks again*

one biggggg hugggggggg for mr lee my hubbie-bi. thanks for hugging me when I'm about to collapse.thanks for those kisses to shut my mouth when i'm so damn pissed.thanks for massaging my back when i'm so worn out by almost everythiing. I'm thankful to seeing you change and becoming sucha loving caring and empathising dearie. At least i know there's this someone who cares for me.
a tiny turning point from suay-ness to being blessed~

1st April, April Fool people!
hmm..which was already 2days ago
okie, was washed out by blasting emtion swings here and there..
blah blah blah~ a slip away to update my blog on friday..

not an exciting one obVIOUSLy.
should be at chinatown to get my DAMN logbook, not to mention, i was late.very late.Apologies to kai wen xiao jie to get it on my behalf.Gazing at the overall grade and comment, i'm so glad i didn't show my face.
a ridiculous B for overall grade, if i didn't mistaken overall means the average over the 20weeks, when the last 10wks i got all As and STILL, the stubborn B traced on the overall grade space.Fumed~~~to have read the comment word by word..total disgrace ARGHHh~ Maybe my boss would think she has done a good deed with a 30% positive portion, forgetting 70% negativity would completely put the 30% good in DISGUISE.
And karen was listening to all these nonsense all the wayyy, xin ku ni le! *giggles*

Went to Peninsula plaza for hairspa. The salon was reallllliii ulu..Without joyce directing me, my eyes definitely will give it a miss! Service was pretty satisfying. They even scanned my hair scalp, discovering i've an oily one! eEekk, you will puke on the spot if you were to see and eat at the same time *eEeWwww~* my hair pores were so blockedddd. just wondering is that another promotion gimmick of theirs, 'coz everyone else's might look just as similar..hMmmm..anyways, i went for a cleansing 30mins session before hairspa came in proper.
I feeeel goooood, my head was sooo light and hair was flying in the air..haha *exaggeration*
Looks good. Feels even better. :)
Another session before promotion ends in april.

Patronised Fav Nails at citylink, my usual brow trim venue, and to karen's surprise there were so many people queueing for brow trimming. She thought they were experiencing no-business almost everyday when she walked by, which I can't go about explaining why it's a total opposite for my caseee..It was crowded was what my eyes always observe.
Whatever, I still think Anita, this charming pro, is the best. *smilEs*

Filled our stomach at Anchorpoint 'coz i wanna see my sickly dearie. The pizza there is fabulously delicious! try it :)
Shopped at queensway shopping center. To my amaze, we did bought quite a handful of non-sports apparels huh! :) Got him a tee that looks punkish on him, sooo niceeee :) Got myself 2 sweetie tops, according to the salesman heartlanders wouldn't bought them..So what's that suppose to mean? I'm no heartlander??!! Chose a batik top for karen and a skirt.
Heeee..at the batik shop right, we were crazily taking photos with their hats on *BIG BIG :)))))* Lurve all the hatsss theree, but don't think there's chance to showcase them 'coz i'm a no-hattie person. Some photos will do the job too. hee

That's about it. Quite boring huh~

Saturday finally get my bums down the tennis court with joycee, jh, don and benny! :) alvin left earlier for his POOL POOL POOL.
played not even shuang then i stopped 'coz menses cramp attacked painfullyyy :( oh mannn and my strokes SUCK!
So wenta bathe, while waiting for sp..He was late! kekee, so to appease his honey, my favourite currypuff was in his hand, ready to enter my stomach..But actually the moment I see him, i'm not angry anymore. Instead, i was very happie. Maybe that's the effect after 2days not seeing him.
Not a happie saturday ending all blames on me. It could be another, when you think back, happiness-filled day if I didn't lose control.

erm,will do better for other days. seek for your understanding dearie :)
I know you've been one empathising sweetie mr. lee
L O V E YOU

I would say I'm a weird person. A person who can't ignore the past and march towards a future that's shaped with unforseen events. Someone who always make life difficult for not only herself, but to people who matter alot. One who pines for a simplified life as since when life has defined itself to be so complicated to understand.

Bang myself! Even after punching my mind with umpteem times of reminder, i still committed a same old mistake. These belonged to a past, too sensitive to worth raking up, I'm so aware of that. I shouldn't ruin a day just like that, b'coz you simply did nothing offending. But also, it just mean your past casted a print in my head, hard to swallow yet gotta force down my throat, reason being I wanna be with you. I may fail to control my emotions again, nonetheless, shouldn't you take a look at how hard I've tried to not bring up. Maybe you overlook it, yes or no, have to admit I'm sandra and always, I will be this sandra.

I sat on my bed, plugging my ears to songs, repeating them once, twice, thrice.. ..
I think I'm a failure. Possessing a worthless school days memory may be one. Producing substandard work during internship, receiving direct criticism from supervisor makes up to two. Not mature when comes to dealing emotions brings me to three. Upsetting my dear love and myself for not feeling special at all, getting a total of four.
Not good at work. Not good at accademic. Not good at maintaing relationships, be it friendship or romance or kinship, none. So what am I? A useless and worthless nobody.
Got myself lowering to be A Pessimistic Ass is what I'm up for?! Yes, for now I guess so.

Better get some direction in this freaky life soon before I forgets what's L I F E