Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Happy Birthday, such a simple greeting yet it could inspire Jingle Ma to come up with a moving storyline.

i cried at the very last part when the truth was revealed to Mimi's (Rene Liu) close friends but not herself. she still think of ah nam (Louis Koo) even after three years, knowing that he is already married. in actual fact, he was contracted with cancer and died. but he doesn't want her to get more insecured due to her childhood experience, he instructed his sister to send out happy birthday greeting every year after he left, to keep the lie alive. i cried when Mimi thought to herself, "I wanna share my happiness with you because finally i can fly to Vienna. i suddenly thought of you while i was playing the piano piece...." as she attended the interview. the naive side of her and the noble side of him makes me feel so sorry for this un-blossom-ed relationship.

it affected me in a way or another, emotionally.

to live a life happily, i really need to learn to take things by stride. but seeing how selfish or should i put it as bu zi dong, i would get rather upset. sometimes doing someone a favour it will most likely be taken for granted. you see, how bu zi dong can people get. frustrating. argh.

san signs off. 5:51 PM
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Tuesday, January 30, 2007

been meeting up with ying. so much that all the photos in my dig cam are full of her images! have been doing lotsa shopping these days too, burnt a super huge hole already. this month no more shopping, till next month (which will be here in days ;)) hehs.

yesterday was feeling awful the entire day. could be i've overwork my body due to too many consecutive late nights and early mornings; or it could be i hate finance so much that my brain froze the moment i stepped into the lecture hall and feeling really stressed up by all the unfamiliar formulaes, to be worse, out of 5 tutorial questions i got 3.5 of them wrong. ARGH; or it could be the complaint from a customer who dislike my service and complained to my cm and even said i gave her the wrong information when it is just so incredibly impossible (because i wont be so dumb to mix up with a mask creme and moisturizer right!) then when my cm asked why she doesnt like my service, she replied "sometimes when you dont like means you dont like, there's no reason". what THE HOLY CRAP. ARGGGGGGGH. i was just thinking, if she doesnt like my service why on earth she bought it from me since (apparently) she didn't know what product was it until i introduced it to her. and she was really 'nice' enough to provide such feedback after she has used up half of it. dont tell me she doesnt know mask creme can't be absorbed!

i always believe in when you're too lucky today, you'll sure be damn suay the very next day. thats what happening to me man.

sunday i met customers who buy our products as if they cost peas. they spend money like it doesnt matter to them, AT ALL. whatever i say, they say okay. one bill totals up to more than 1k. felt so good yesterday yesterday. but not yesterday. it was horrid. even shopping at fareast with ying doesnt help, i'm like momentarily immuned to all temptations. that totally sucks.

and today. (i feel like my emotions are going on an enormous rollercoaster) feeling really good after having breakfast with peow before he booked in for his reservice. it was like 630 in the morning. thenafter i went home to rest and once i checked my hotmail, i saw osk's email! her email seriously brightened up all my sian-ness accumulated yesterday. it was really nice to know how much she wants to catch up with me, i felt very appreciated and treasured. and she even said i will definitely love my birthday pressie she has gotten plus some other stuff, i'm so pampered by my this dearest ever friend. awaiting her arrival. muacks, i'm anxious!

photos time! all taken in january. :)

signs off, weary san.

san signs off. 2:54 PM
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Saturday, January 20, 2007

funny to find myself at home on a saturday afternoon. usually i will either be working or i will be hanging out with peow. oddly or it is fated to be, i requested to not work on this day having the thought that peow will be having his saturday off too, in the end he was asked to work because of some same reason. so now i'm slacking at home.


last night ling stayed over. didn't intend for a stayover, but i really felt it was too dangerous for a gurl to walk down dark quiet street in the middle of the night so asked her to stay. haha this time she slept soundly without falling onto the floor. i'm not too bad as a host kay! at least she has bolster (er primary sch kid's size bolster) and one extra blanket just for her. nice right, ling you better nod your head now. haha. we drafted a shopping list for the month of JANUARY. definitely, our buys will exceed what is shown in our list, but adding item to the list makes me happy. i need tuesday to be here quick! gonna shop with ying ;) then more shopping with ling (& maybe daph if she is joining us after our lunch)! this thought is so motivating, for now. i must make this shopping trip happen and it must happen big with many many many shopping bags home. hehe.


met up with ying for dinner on tuesday. and we met again on thursday, this time she was being real nice by accompanying me for dinner during my 2hours break. reason being, i have class from 2-5pm then 7-10pm (finance class) so in between i met her at clementi for mum-mum. chat alittle then we planned for one more meetup which is on tues before her sia training begins.

ying: photos are up in my shutterfly, go check it out. :)

a photo taken with my counter manager ;) she is realllllly nice and i like her! this pic was taken when i just did my temporary curl and haircut. i look nice in curls right. :P

gonna sign off with loads of love. i can't wait to shop! can't wait cant wait. my shopping list is waiting to be discovered & fulfilled. :)

yours truly, san.

san signs off. 2:48 PM
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Friday, January 19, 2007

when shit hits you real hard, there's simply no way to dodge.

in life, countless things are beyond our control. whilst pretending to be strong with all these helplessness, i secretly pray for a miraculous torch of hope to resolve all of these magically.

was talking to ling and a sudden truth struck me right in my heart painfully. "nothing lasts forever" but i want ours to last, at least till the day i die. eternity 3359 sounds more than a myth? promises are only beautiful when it is made to keep. feelings that are lost along the way, can it be lost and found? by telling me your love for me remains unchanged does not denote eternity if you are ready (at anytime) to let me go. i never believe in loving someone by letting him go. it is more of an excuse to make yourself look noble and earn sympathy in a way. for myself (you might think i'm self-centred), if you love the person really that much it's hard to even say "let go".

time waits no one. i'm soon passing the age of 21 and bit by bit, i'm exposed to how 2-d a relationship can get. 2-d in the sense that it's only on the surface couples are looking gd. inside, they might be really boring and/or they might be meeting so little that sometimes they forget that they are already attached. sometimes in such rs, these partners are more like a companion. i dont want all of that! what i want is 3-d or even 4-d, one that has depth and stems firmly with you and me ('s priority) in each other's head. i want my man to make me feel like he can't do without me and not getting used to me.

he won't understand abit of what i've said. he will only think i'm self-centred. why don't you think why am i feeling this way all the time. either something is wrong with me or it's you! hais, yes i think i'm getting bongus.

san signs off. 11:00 AM
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Sunday, January 14, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONY! :)

someone who's in australia is not forgotten yea! hope you've spend your 22nd birthday in a very special way and may my blessings be with you. soon you'll receive what you're deem to receive from moi. (",)

san signs off. 11:25 PM
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Friday, January 12, 2007

yesterday was everything about junie! i hanged out with her for nearly 12hours nonstop and our talking gas kept us going during dinner for over 4hours. we ate we chatted we travelled we chatted we sang we sang we sang we ate we chatted chatted chatted chatted... our lei is already bombarded with project workS so she didnt join us else i guess there will be more than just that. i enjoyed myself to bits. :) and it has been raining cat and dogs these days. this continuous fall caused me much inconvenience while i'm on my way home. whenever i need my peow, he will suddenly be in the picture and there i was being fetched home.

met joyce in sim, never knew her class has started. ironically, she becomes my junior and she's only one semester behind daph. hope to see her around :)



link to photos.

san signs off. 3:33 PM
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007

today can't be too bad. bumping into junie and lunching out at clementi with her how can today not be good. time seems really short when we started chatting nonstop, one blink and it's 2hours. :) such friends are hard to come by.

smiley san on a smiling wednesday.

san signs off. 5:13 PM
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Friday, January 05, 2007

this afternoon had a dream. had a dream that me and peow flew to melbourne in the middle of the night and had supper with mony, osk, clement and their friends. funny enough, osk and clement flew back to sg with us to pick up something from us and flew back again. the dream will be real if we are that filthy rich.

my dec hardwork has finally paid off *HUGE WIDE SMILE* this goes to the savings for my aust trip!

all photos have been uploaded to http://sansan33.shutterfly.com

yesterevening at tcc. gurls night out! miss all of them. and like what i've told qi, i never feel the distance between us no matter how long we've no meet. :)


the result of yy and san's manicure.


birthday gurl.












even in the ladies..



new year countdown at walawala.




whistle lips.











Ling: get well soooooon!

san signs off. 8:58 PM
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