My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with

i need you.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

second paper which is also the second last paper has ended this morning. a challenging paper i would say.

today's junie's 21st! was preparing a surprise for her and had gotten everything that is needed later on. going to her house for a mini birthday celebration. hope she doesn't find my 'ideas' too dull. with the amount of time available that is almost the best i can do, may your 21st be a memorable one! ;)

met junie last wednesday after work. at cine's tcc and she has gotten a really coooooool hp which is 'imported' from JAPAN. it's by toshiba if i remember correccccctly?! you've figured the way to use it eh?? hehs.

the past month i've attended two weddings. the bride and groom were both not quite associated to me but everytime they play those love songs as the background music and as i watched their video clips about the bride and groom i can feel butterflies in me. love that sparks and endured is one priceless gift for the two of them. the price is beyond measurement as not every couple walks down the red carpeted aisle together.

just remembered what a friend at lauder has brought up during our drinking session at clark quay. "the one you get married to might not necessarily be the one you love the most." she's already married with a 3months old baby gurl. she told us the man she loves the most is not her husband but the one before him. she regretted for letting that man go. and something truly upsetting happened to me and him last wkend. i pleaded and pleaded because i don't want to regret and also because i really love him. it has been a long time since i've brought out the cards that he has given me for the past two years plus. i teared as i read one part whereby he promises to love me forever. really heartbreaking to listen those heartless words piercing my heart bit by bit. i remembered myself crying so badly yet he remained indifferent. that sunday, i sat down and was intimidated by how things could change so easily so quickly. felt ashamed of myself to think that our love has already arrive at a stable mode and thinking that what we were waiting for is to stroll down the wedding aisle hand in hand together with our love ones' blessings. but no, our love has now reset to the most beginning mode because the denial of us being each other's final destination brought me the sharpest pain. may i survive through this painindulgence.

more things to add. ying is in SIA! i'm quite sure she has gotten in even though her medical result is still withheld. anyways more and more SIA gurls whom i know, something good or bad. i think it's for the good because i can get ying to buy some pretty stuff way abroad! ;) and yesternight we met and she passed me some tasty cakes that she has ordered online. felt really touched and the cakes were really pricey! good luck ying and i'm so sure you'll enjoy your days there. apart from the travelling part to tanah merah for training everything should be just fine. and thanks for meeting me, i just realised everytime i'm at my lowest point, you'll always be there. yes, you'll just appear. is that what friends are for, i guess so my friend. heart you. and hope i will have the chance to ton at your house huh! hehs.

last saturday. all dressed up to attend this love binding event. ;)

me and him.

he was on the phone while i was captivated by our shadows.

his primary school mates. fate is amazing. after one big round, these two primary school friends still got together and they are already engaged.

with the bride and groom.

san signs off. 4:00 PM
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p r i n c e s s . s a n 3

life's too short to devote time dwelling over irreversible facts.

in my life, I wish upon eternal happiness with all my loved ones.

a bonus will be to see myself at the top of my career in another few years' time.

LIKES

1. Being appreciated by him.
2. Have all his love and attention.
3. Yakking nonstop with all my buds, anywhere anytime.
4. INSANE SHOPPING :)

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