My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with

i need you.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

my present friendster shoutout stands to be "to love or to be loved is beyond your control".

i reckoned it was about a year ago, i wrote an entry saying if i'm given a choice i would rather to love because loving someone can be such a luxury when the person acknowledges and reciprocates. i used to think that was enough. i thought i'll be just contented with that. i thought with my love, there's nothing i can't tolerate.

i was wrong. so wrong.

i confessed i'm another mere selfish individual. i can't do with just loving someone yet being clear of his incomparable love. this traffic weighs heavy on my end. unrealisingly, i've grown weary of this situation. i don't deny the current san demands for more love more attention and still more love but i also couldn't deny that your doubled, or call it the tripled, effort has becoming more obvious.

if love has no fair comparison, why isn't mine the superior one?

do you know what does "wo ai ni bi ni ai wo duo" denote? the one who loves more will always give more. will always be more willing to do anything and everything. will be extra attentive to the one you love's needs. will do anything just to see that the one you love is happie. and the one who loves more is usually the one who receives the greatest hurt.

and do you know what does "ni ai de bi wo shao" denote? the one who loves lesser will be indifferent to the one who loves more's feelings and needs. will do things that hurt the one who loves more, unintentionally. and the one who loves lesser usually has already given their truest love away or was deeply hurt once or both.

san signs off. 10:33 AM
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p r i n c e s s . s a n 3

life's too short to devote time dwelling over irreversible facts.

in my life, I wish upon eternal happiness with all my loved ones.

a bonus will be to see myself at the top of my career in another few years' time.

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1. Being appreciated by him.
2. Have all his love and attention.
3. Yakking nonstop with all my buds, anywhere anytime.
4. INSANE SHOPPING :)

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