Tuesday, November 29, 2005

in the end, i cancelled my dental operation appointment. tooth wasn't so much in pain now so till it aches terribly again, which i hope it won't be, i shall face the operation lights.

actually the hardcore reason for me pushing this operation aside is because of my dear peow's concerns. my mummy was also paranoid when she heard i'm going for an operation last weekend, old people are all of the same kind i reckon.
**and dearie i know the secret between you and my mummy ^-* **

last saturday played tennis with clement and osk, these two had just returned from taiwan on friday. they wanna worked on their gained kilograms was what osk claims. we had lunch with them before i went to town to meet junie and all. dinner at balcony (the nice setting outside heeren) was pathetic. the servings were pathetic pathetic. took some photos and went to tcc. some opted for more food. more photos and i've to go for my ktv night at the 10dollars ktv. the four old birds sang and sang, it was a cosy night. felt good after singing with them ;)

qiqi looks pale that day, take care more gurlie!

monday was all about going from places to places to get things done. me and peow headed back to starhub center and to realise we can only return the scv set at the other 3 branches. walked to ps that was the nearest to us. after i got my brow trimmed, peow's still waiting for his turn. we waited for like an hour or so then we realise something else, we forget to bring its remote control along! which also means we needa make another trip down, haha~ walked to singtel hello! shop to alter peow's current mobile plan as well as activating its mms service. this time we were told that he needs to have the subscriber's i/c or authorisation letter in order to proceed. but luckily, mms activation was done. else it's really another wasted trip.

from there we rushed to mediacorp building to catch his friend's performance for the SuperHost. i tell you!!!!!! if you really wanna get a feel of it, watch the live broadcast instead of what we had for yesternight. it cut here cut there. an hour show became a more than 3hours show that easily. but quan yi feng has wonderful eloquence, i'm impressed impressed. and kym ng looks PRETTY! peow's friend was quite okay, among the top 4 female contestants. and that xu nai ling, a taiwan host, he's pretty charming too. peow kept saying a man looks better when they get older. haha, he's indirectly explaining for himself, isit?? =P but that xu nai ling abit cocky lah. i saw a gurl asking for his signature, but he rejected saying it's not the time for this yet. only until the interval then he signed for them. maybe that's being professional?? i don't know. apparently he doesn't like the idea of getting cut here and there because he has to do his speech again and he put it in a less offensive manner as the chief producer said CUT, "it won't sound as good already if you want me to do it again".

san signs off. 9:53 AM
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Wednesday, November 23, 2005

wisdom tooth!! i hate you!!!!!!

it's causing so much irksome aching to my left lower gum and the most irritating thing is to affect my one other back tooth to join the pain by shaking alittle. ;( and right now, when i'm rest my chin somewhere, it will also ache. it must be the nerves in the gum are disturbed as well. then then then, my throat is kinda in a sore state because of it too. because the dentist apparently said everything's connected! she suggested an operation to be done, obviously. how much does it cost at AH huh, giv??

it just makes me hate this stupid tooth that was labelled as a wise one by don't-know-whoever! it's not wise 'coz it's causing me neverending discomfort. poor me can only rely on painkiller prescribed by the dental clinic. ;( and the rinsing solution for my mouth make me taste more bitterness, howwww nice.

today was the first time seeing my peow and my daddy along with my youngest brother sitting altogether for lunch. ;) he drove them to my bro's school to get his next year's textbooks etc. thanks honey, really appreciate it alot. it means alot to me.

though a small hiccup in between this afternoon, i spent it pretty happily with him. after his army training still he makes an effort to see me, have dinner with me, strolling down my neighbourhood streets...

san signs off. 11:47 PM
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Tuesday, November 22, 2005

hees. happie with this piece of work. ;)


piscean giv and san.

oh yah, i forget to talk about my lastnight's dream! it was HORRIBLE. yes yes horrible is the word.

i dreamt that i was dying. in the dream, i saw myself in a hospital ward, suffering from kidney failure. but the weird thing was, i had a tube implanted into my body, protruding out from the left side of my bod. and i saw my mummy who was trying very hard to comfort me to sleep. the saddest thing in the dream was, peow was nowhere seen. looking for him, sms-ed him but he just didn't appear before my bed. ;(
then my follow-up dream was in a school canteen. the canteen was very foreign to me, now that i think back. i was with my mummy, my 2 brothers and my fellow sptcians (alvin jh osk clement and some newbies are the ones i can recall vividly). we were playing the tap-and-run game. we were seated in a circle, once your shoulder's tapped by A,who is walking outside the circle, you must run after A in order to return to your seat; else you take over the role of A.

i woke up in relief. i was so glad i'm not trapped in the dream. 'coz i don't wanna die yet. and 'coz i can't find peow in the dream. it was amazing that i woke up with them still stamped clearly in my head.

san signs off. 4:44 PM
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tell me what is today's date??

it's 22nd November 2005.

i'm repeating after my heart-closet's whispering, which says today represents my 16th month anniversary with peow.

in my life till now, he has accompanied me through these 16 months, playing the role as my dearest hubbie-bi 59. bittersweet memories that we've built up along the way remains to be so irreplaceable.

but there's this little room in my heart that bleeds every now and then. it stirred up unawaken mixed emotions every now and then too. i mind. i still do mind. and i guess, i will always mind. all i can do is to pray for lesser relapses. like what he has said, don't waste away the time that is possible to be our next special moment, which is undeniably agreeable.

was supposed to meet up with junie this evening but is now postponed. meet up soon gurlie ;) might be meeting up with the other polymates this weekend. ;)

yester-evening, a kind soul went down to queensway just for the sake of choosing a suitable spectacles frame for her bestfriend. and this bestfriend actually planned to abandon her!! mannnn!! yes it's mr. lok!
with my professionalism, he looks pretty good in his new specs. and my peow charged him cheapcheap only loh. be glad mr. lok!! wonder did his boss and lady boss got a shock this morning, haha~
his another friend, cheong/isit chiong? was there at peow's shop too. he thought the specs frame that i've picked out suits him too. hees. ohhh forget to mention, it's a plastic frame with black on the outside and white on the inside.
had dinner with them, i was not very hungry though. hasn't been eating much lately, apettite not that good. i was really surprised that his friend cheong is 23 and has already served the nation!! BECAUSE he looks much younger than 23 loh but there's this gentlemanly-air in him lah. his education path is somewhat similar to peow's. jc then ns then poly. and guess what his gurlfriend is also called sandra! and is also taller than him, haha.

aiyah!! should have taken a pic of mr. lok in his new specs here hohhh..

thanks for these 16 mths dearie.

i'm still loving this love, as always.

san signs off. 1:42 PM
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Sunday, November 20, 2005

was at expo for a sexpo exhibition yesterday. those ancient sexual paintings on potteries were pretty hilarious. didn't know ancient men and women do flirt like us!

haven't been sleeping well these days. finding hard to fall asleep, is that insomnia? this feeling is real sucky.


a pretty pic taken on friday. dinner at pepper lunch with giv. ;)

other pictures taken with her shall be edited.

san signs off. 9:02 PM
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my present friendster shoutout stands to be "to love or to be loved is beyond your control".

i reckoned it was about a year ago, i wrote an entry saying if i'm given a choice i would rather to love because loving someone can be such a luxury when the person acknowledges and reciprocates. i used to think that was enough. i thought i'll be just contented with that. i thought with my love, there's nothing i can't tolerate.

i was wrong. so wrong.

i confessed i'm another mere selfish individual. i can't do with just loving someone yet being clear of his incomparable love. this traffic weighs heavy on my end. unrealisingly, i've grown weary of this situation. i don't deny the current san demands for more love more attention and still more love but i also couldn't deny that your doubled, or call it the tripled, effort has becoming more obvious.

if love has no fair comparison, why isn't mine the superior one?

do you know what does "wo ai ni bi ni ai wo duo" denote? the one who loves more will always give more. will always be more willing to do anything and everything. will be extra attentive to the one you love's needs. will do anything just to see that the one you love is happie. and the one who loves more is usually the one who receives the greatest hurt.

and do you know what does "ni ai de bi wo shao" denote? the one who loves lesser will be indifferent to the one who loves more's feelings and needs. will do things that hurt the one who loves more, unintentionally. and the one who loves lesser usually has already given their truest love away or was deeply hurt once or both.

san signs off. 10:33 AM
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Friday, November 18, 2005

ever since last week, i've been shopping non-stop. for the first time i felt a wholesome joy in shopping. somehow or rather, it pours unconscious self-confidence over me and apparently, i'm feeling thumb-ups good. to add on, i would compliment my shopping partners for these days, the retail enjoyment wouldn't have been maximised to its fullest if it's without their company. those chats over our meals were just too good to be true, especially ones with osk. we were, i should say, i've truly find my other soulmate. though there are certainly times where i felt drifted apart from her, catching up with her alone has never fail to bring our closeness alive again. at least, i felt close to her for those moments and that's what matters. ;)

after working for a year, separately for itp and fulltime working, i deserve this pause in life. as school term commences, schedules that are not in my control will be stepping in once again.

today what did i get for myself. a loreal hairmask, one lip gloss and one lipstick. got myself a slipper that's claimed to be not slippery even on wet floor! i've my doubts so will continue to refrain from wearing slippers on rainy days. falling down is my other phobia. had our dinner at pepper lunch. it was good! something new, cooking your own food, hmmm more like stirring your food on the hot pan. both me and giv had salmon and chicken combo.

san signs off. 11:49 PM
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Wednesday, November 16, 2005

my wednesday is a real packed one. travelling around in a pointed shoes can sure be a painful one indeed and my sore feets are, unwantedly, the victims.

but i've sincerely enjoyed myself to bits. *big smilEs surfaced*

waking up with peow has always been a big pleasure, so this morning was definitely not an exception too. late night plus getting up early makes a weary sandra. still, i looked forward to what i'm gonna have for today.

went to ang mo kio and get peow's bankdraft done. perhaps it was not peow's day, or also perhaps ang mo kio posb branch has a bunch of inefficient employees, we waited for several hours to really get it DONE. in between we had seoul garden for our lunch. i would say i don't really like it there, 'coz the food isn't very fresh but for peow's sake i don't mind ;) and guess what!!!!! sandra ong watched the excorcism!! though it's scary (DUH!~), the story worths watching. besides those nerve-wrecking scenes, the message meant to be put forward is to for salvation, face your fears. avoiding it will not eliminate your fears, in turn, it might grow.

met osk in town right after peow went in for his reservist training. bought eun's birthday pressie! ;) a roxy handbag, suggested by junie. at zara, i got myself a long denim skirt and a loose top. osk, obviously, got herself something too. a long sleeve black top, which looks elegant and sweet on her. ;)

blessed me, peow wanted to meet me in the night again, no doubt our location were pretty far apart. and he said because he misses me. muacks, i miss you too honey. so this explains why i'm at his place now. love you love you love you...

this flash is soooo funny! hahaa~ the theme song of chicken little!
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/numa.php

san signs off. 10:54 PM
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Tuesday, November 15, 2005

my computer is spoilt!! now using another pc in my house, which is VERY slow in speed!!

later gonna go town with osk to get some stuffs ;) shopping is addictive, once you start, you can hardly stop. haha~ but must control lah, that's for sure. always save some money for the next shopping spree is good, hehe.

planning to get a new digital camera to replace my FAT BULKY current one. any fine recommendation? i thought of getting canon ixus..saw a new panasonic one on tv ad, the design is quite catchy. think think think.

oh yah! an annoucement to make. osk has passed her driving test! first female driver in sptc, how cool! so don't be surprise to see her driving around in a beetle car! ;)

will be starting school in sim on 3rd jan 2006. gonna transform to a poor student soon. exams and projects are welcoming me with their open arms, which is alittle scary though. my dear parents are paying for my school fees and i felt so blessed. *muacks*

dream invaded my night again. this time, i saw alvin giv and joycee in it. it's pretty weird though to dream of them and the dream itself is strange. can't really recall but i know it's WEIRD 'coz i woke up feeling real odd. and i guess that ecplains for my lethargy now.

santa claus is on its way. peow and i planned to have a gift exchange between just the two of us. 'coz i thought it's gonna be very hard to gather many people together for a gift exchange. to save the trouble, i shall scrape that idea.
the rule is, a card must be attached! dearie don't forget *smilEs*

people come and go. when you see signs of leaving, don't be upset. be glad that they were once part of your beautiful memory.

san signs off. 2:07 PM
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Sunday, November 13, 2005

i'm missing my dear so much now..

almost complete a piece using photoshop this afternoon and my pc play a big joke on me by restarting on its own!

but today i'm fully inspired. ;)


the key to our heart. is L O V E.

san signs off. 8:49 PM
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Saturday, November 12, 2005

like what i've told peow, this entire week is really MY week. 'coz i could see him everyday since monday till today, saturday. i'm contented 'coz smiles are written all over my face these days and it's all because of Y O U, my hubbie-bi. ;)

he just bought me a box of cookies. the box has winnie the pooh prints on it, looks so cute. tasted one myself and it's really yummy!

though i've not been with him for one whole day in this entire week, just bits and pieces throughout, this simplicity is priceless. as he recovers his working life, things will get alittle different somehow. and right now, i'm missing his passionate kisses already.. i miss looking at his eyes.. i just love looking at him and maybe this is what love is all about, getting distracted even when you are merely listening to his voice..getting lost in a world belonging to ours.

i might become a tuition teacher soon. hmmmm. i've not fill up the particulars yet though. because my MSwords is spoilt!! argh! my comp is gonna fail on me very soon. fast-changing technology can be quite a hassle too.

*missing my peow terribly now..*

san signs off. 9:53 PM
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Friday, November 11, 2005

what have i been doing for the past few days?

last saturday, peow and i spent our evening at ecp. our dinner was at kenny rogers. the ribs was pathetic lah! i can't feel anything close to FULL after ripping the half slabs of ribs. ;( and peow had quarter chicken. the side dishes were even nicer, i thought. mashed potato, potato salad, cheese macaroni and honey baked beans. hmmmm, but i thought their honey baked beans deserve a miss, 'coz find it quite sick after a few mouth.

for monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday and including today, i have been and will be seeing peow. ;) 'coz he's having classes so can meet him daily, that's nice nice nice.

i was glad to have cover the grey areas in our relationship. he's willing to compromise and i'm waiting to witness a much stable love ahead.

wednesday met up with osk and daph. we shopped and shopped. was a fulfilling day. got myself a m)phosis bag and a nike sports bra! hees, i'm definitely a happie gurl! osk got herself a m)phosis bag too. daph bought a sparkling 'diamond' ear studs from chomel. ;) had dinner at taka, can't recall what's the restaurant name though. =P but osk and daph strongly recommend one eating place too! and guess what, i forget its name too!! but peow knows what i'm talking about, so we shall eat that the next time. errrr, but daph what's their names huh? hees.

and that wed night, it was really sweet of peow to get horfun for my family after reporting to khatib camp and was only out at about 10p.m. ;) it was a plus plus to my daddy! muacks.



at ecp. my dear's crooked smile, indelibrately.


peow's food at kenny rogers. their corn muffin is good!



pathetic half-slabs ribs.


long belated pics with these two gurls.


while waiting for daph in zara's changing room.

san signs off. 3:50 PM
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Monday, November 07, 2005

in my dreams, everything looks and feels so real.

i hate it when dreams were out to disrupt my precious beauty sleep. it's terrible to get awake in the middle of the night, seeing no one but yourself in the mirror, knowing that you're alone facing this real-but-yet-not-so-real discomfort.

the first dream brought me to jb and i was somewhere near to a haunted house that happens to be my cousin's residence. all i can remember was, it's haunted and i was terrified. the next moment, i was vacuumed to a next scene with peow and an unknown gurl in it. that was my second nightmare. peow was very rude to me and trying all means to leave me for another gurl.

i woke up in fears. the next very minute as i get more composed, i told myself that were just impractical dreams. consoling oneself to bed isn't very nice, if you were to experience it.

i really wished for peow's presence at that point of time. maybe too used to sleeping beside him.

was supposed to go town but the uneasiness in me refused to die off. so i thought of staying in comfort zone and not moving to anywhere.

peow's having 5days of classes this week. missing him...

why isn't there prince to frog tonight!! wednesday seems so near yet still far. ;(

san signs off. 3:51 PM
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Friday, November 04, 2005

i translated the song's lyrics of zhen ai. it's one of the theme song of the show - Wang zi bian qing wa.
it's on the very first page you see as you log onto my blog!
i think i've did a pretty good job! hehe~

eyes are tired after staring into my pc for hours. shall rest and feed my stomach with cheese-egg-bread! yummy!

my honey peow, your princess is missing of you dearly now. ;)

san signs off. 5:02 PM
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Thursday, November 03, 2005

Spot the difference in me between yesterday and today.

a huge purplish nerve-bleeding bruise on my right 8-yue-15. and it is abit swollen!!! how niceeeeee huh~

unlucky thursday.

it's hell painful!! yes yes yes i fell! though i do slip and fall VERY often during rainy days, but i can seriously look into your eyes and tell you, my eyes seldom sympathise my butt and it did yesterday! i just hope i've not fall, now i'm sitting in such awkward position whenever i plan to rest my butt on something. ;(

if you happen to wonder when did i fall, it was right before going to mony's place.

didn't stay on throughout the mahjong, and i guess i've missed out plenty of fun huh! haha. but sleeping by peow's side is also nice, so sansan has no complaint. =) dearie saw the bruise and he was shocked too. it was just too big and too purplish and he said my blood circulation is poor, always kena from bruises. now i'm typing this, the thought of it makes my hair stand.

what kinda minerals or vitamins help in blood circulation? anyone please.

san signs off. 3:50 PM
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Wednesday, November 02, 2005

i'm finally having the strength and some inspirations of what to pen down here. :)

after the overnight mahjong, i actually fell sick!! okay, i'm weak!
my immune system has been stirred up by me. i'm not cut out to be a night cat, only one overnight ktv, one overnight mahjong were enough to break me apart.

and i wanna compliment dearie!
my mr. peow was nice to me, hmm, though he could have been better if he initiated the very first caring move lah. i'm not very very very demanding, just very demanding perhaps. hehe~
who doesn't love to be pampered by their darlings?! but i'm thankful i've this sweet darling here to dote me and made me feel so loved.

just now had a bad dream. my nap was gone just like that and that's not very nice. ;(
i dreamt of me getting stranded in the middle of the sea and felt so helpless. i shouted for help, yet for no reason, i lost my voice. no one could hear me and i sense doom is on my way.
man! and i woke up mumbling "jiu wo..jiu wo.." it means save me.

peow said before, why do i always cry in my dreams. basically i can feel the pain vividly in the illusionised dreams that's why tears gave way.

mahjong later or not? make up your mind mr. alvin!! =P

san signs off. 1:23 PM
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