let me yawn first.. *yawns*

mahjong-ing at ms. mo-ni-ka's house from 8p.m. till 6.45 a.m. this morning! and the biggest joke is, through these long hours we only manage to complete 2 rounds! for that, i give a big pat on my shoulder because we broke the slowest record, i think!
AND I'M THE BIGGEST LOSER!! AND OSKYCLEMENT ARE THE BIGGEST WINNER!!
we play small small, still i lost $9! hahaa..i can always do better the next time, i've lost my beginner's luck so must work on my skills man! but i love mahjong!! heheee, mahjong session again peeps!

mr. bestfriend and oskyclement damn patient with me! they cleared all my doubts and i'm won't look so much like a blur cock liao~ hee thanks huh! and my bestfriend is really nice, when i was losing alot i can see that you tried to make me feel not too bad :)

Been so preoccupied. as i refresh my memory, i have been going out so often. only now i've the chance to sit down here and blog. ;) gonna upload some photos i've took in kusu island, which was taken on monday!

along with peow, we had sakae sushi lunch buffet that monday too! stomach almost burst i tell you! for some reasons, we headed back to school for an impromptu tennis right after filling our stomach. and guess what?!! it rained. so much for wanna play tennis huh~ watched 40years old virgin that very night too. it was quite a humourous one but i just thought it wasn't as funny and ra as all my other friends had commented.

caught deuce gigolo the nxt following night with ling and mony! movie was the last resort of mine to kill my tuesday night after getting them to reject my mahjong and monopoly request!!

and someone can just bang me! wednesday evening was flight plan with junie and jaiyme! bang bang bang! according to jaiyme's and junie's, the hijack plan on flight was too perfect that it became too impossible. that, perhaps, was its only flaw. the plot was pretty good i would say, but just tooo perfect. and jaiyme is an excellent movie plot analyst i tell you!! she got what the director was trying to put forward to all its viewers when most of us still find it ambiguous.

movie marothon man.

tennis on wed noon with the gurls were pretty short. not satisfying enough 'coz i'm rushing to bathe and get to town! tonight tennis. sat morn tennis? depends whether i could get up =X heee.. mahjong night at mony's place on sat~~~ though im not a good player, i just wanna have some fun on the table.

my whole week's gonna flew just like that. haven't been seeing him for a couple of days already. apparently, i'm not feeling very good about it. oh wells, relationship is a tough chore and sometimes i just loathe it.

dreams are meant to motivate and not to pull oneself down.

A few hours before i went for bed last night, i've an urge *a very pushing one* to look those photos i've taken during my poly days. frankly, i missed those days. perhaps when it comes to talking about MEMORIES, only selective pleasant ones are kept. at least for me, that's the case, i forgo those letdown ones and choose to live with my happie past times. ;)

as i flipped through my year ones' photos, i almost teared. junie, me, ah eun and jia. we were really that that close in our poly year one. the three gurls were also the first three friends i get along with when i first entered singapore poly. our gossiping times in fc6, our not-paying-attention times in lecture halls. our non-stop snackings during tutorials. our project discussions, with me and junie being the loud hailers, insisting on our very stand, those were the times. our marketing project 'camping' at junie's house. our celebration for two nov birthday gurls at ah eun's house. those were the good old times. and i almost cried because we are no longer as close as before. the bond just doesn't come back anymore, i guess. disputes are unhealthy, hatred that grows in us put harm to our friendship.
at least there's memories. ;)

and the vietnam days! it was really funny, hilarious and unforgettable! a whole bunch of us sneaked out middle of the night to go for a stroll down the village after some poker games. haha~ and people going around to scare me when i was about to night out by walking past my bed and keep giggling! because our sleeping areas are insects-prone in the night! made me so SCARED that i screamed and woke junie up! hahahaa..and of course for that, we know jaiyme better and got myself a 'brudder' mr. thomas!! ;) we played the guardian angel and ward game throughout the trip. the thing was we are not allowed to let our ward to know we are their angel! we gave our wards pressie along the way and cheer him/her up when they sick/discouraged/tired. it's very fun! and my ward happens to be ms.alicia who was the teacher i/c! i had lotsa irreplaceable fun.

my first batch tennis outing with peow, jintong, yifeng, ah eun, jia, osk, clement to ps for a movie, Ju'on *spelt liddat?*! clement was so scared that he threw his popcorns everywhere and hid himself behind the popcorns as he peeped at the show! that time, all of us were all singles! things are ironically beautiful is what i can comment. ;) as it comes to the pulau ubin trip! those sandfly-s bites! oh mannnn... and me getting so terrified of dogs, somemore it was a big black dog, i grabbed alvin's hand till it went blood-less-white! bestfriend and ling sitting outside my sleeping tent protecting me from dogs! and guess what, throughout the night i kept breaking into big laughter as bestfriend crapped! and my laughter was ghostly huh~ kekee..mony joycee giv and daphie, these gurls i knew in tennis along the way. may all of our friendship be everlasting! ;)

celebrated my mooncake festival at chinese garden last year with peow and those photos were so funny too! hahhaa..and i looked so tanned and black inside those photos! more days to come with peow in it, muacks! then i realised, i haven't develop many photos of me and him!!!

gradnite at pan pacific. all those beautiful pretty faces. i missed all of them. oh mannnnn.. looking at my whole stack of photos, i just miss it so much! i took the most with ms junie! we even took neoprints! ;) amanda laine huiping and all..

the biggest thing that i've a shock of my life!!
i changed so much in terms of appearance since year one. i was really shocked 'coz all these while i felt the same..
according to ms junie, my 3year closest poly bud:
:: - Planetarium - says:
let me list the major changes and trust me...i know best!
1) specs to contacts
2) hair no longer dark, long, straight --> became light, layered and fringe constantly changing
3) wadrobe upgraded and increased in capacity
4) slimmer
5) tanner
but character still the same!

i should show a photo of my past and present then you guys can see the big contrast, i was really shocked! k till then, i go edit on it first. =P

have a great day ahead everybody. esp. to ms joycee, my bestfriend and ms givany! ;)

i think i love my lifestyle alot alot now! ;) i can do whatever i like anytime anywhere just as i wish to! this is life mannnn... *smilEs widely*

for these few days, i just can't help to keep feeling i'm the most xinfu woman. i'm fortunate to be surrounded by my spontaneous family members. daddy and mummy finally got the point that their daughter needs some quality rest. was so stressed out as i've not been getting enough breathing space ever since i graduated. just work and work and work, just keep on urging me to earn money when i'm young and don't laze around 'coz they thought it was plain wasting of time. broke down once in the tennis court, listened out to Osk's advices. she's gooood k, because of her words i felt more relieved. like what she has explained, no matter how you go about achieving your goals in life, as long as you achieve it, that's what matters most. don't bother about people who appear to reach it easier and faster than you, 'coz in the end so long you get what they are getting, why go through those pains of feeling inferior! thanks osk! you don't know how many thank-you-s i wana tell you. ;)

i'm enjoying life now!! yes qiqi!! ;) heee..pamper yourself after some hard works just feeeels too gooood!! i just streaked my hair blonde brown, hee~ and i'm lovvvvinnnnng it!

Topshop's having 50% off! of course it's on selected items, but still pretty a good buy! got myself a few more tops and one secret pressie for someeeeone. hehe~

you guys love or hate stinky tofu (chou-toufu)?!! or remain neutral?
peow and i had it yesterday for our lunch at bugis! was at the shop and i started telling peow don't you find it very smelllly.... and he said it was the chou toufu, then i was like ohhhhhh... i remember the last time i ate it, it wasnt as stinky as that. sitting in the openspace also can sniff the chou-chou smell, i think power leh but peow said it's not chou enough. he said hongkong's is even stinkier! mannn i wonder can i take that strong pungent smell if i'm in hongkong... *hmmmm..*


stinky toufu (chou toufu)


me enjoying food ;)


eat until eyes also cannot be seen liao lah!ha~

went to his place in the night again to show him my beautiful hair! hahaa..we were looking through the world's richest men and women! bill gates is too good lah, he has been holding the world's richest man title for 15years!! heeeelllllo, is 15years okie! *faint* but too bad he's married and with 1 or 2 children (can't rem)! we were having some good laugh as we plan to have me marrying the oldest man in the top10 richest list then when he pass away we can get his fortune bla bla blahhh.. haha~ you think so easy meh! =P


cover my beautiful eyes! argh. kekee


give you a kiss honey. mUacks. you look better without spec. ;)love you!


cheeky face! dearie looks so blur.

spent 4hours doing all these editing and i really love doing it. ;) smile smile smile. hee~


with alittle wind~

a forbidden photo is in the second final piece and my peow insisted of removing it. so i can only share it with him and no publication. ;( i think that piece looks verrrrry nice.


1st final piece.

other than a night by dearie's side, what else can I ask for?
it just feels too goooood. ;)

helped my brudder with his photo. wanna do some justice to his crush. ;)

Snuggling in my comfy bed till early noon.
I said to myself, "this is life."

sleeping for more than 18hours yesterday and to me, sleeping has always been a big big pleasure. waking up feeling so fresh and knowing the rest of your day is not about pretending to work infront of your pc, that is life.

he actually gotten me 2 long sleeve tops and 3 spaghetti-s!! all of them look good on me, so you do have some fashion taste huh! kekee..

he also gotten me a classic handbag. it looks like Ma Xiao Ling's one in that a date with vampire. hahaa~

another two pairs of earrings are for me too! ;)

love you love you love you. MUACKs!

not gonna spend so much time straining my eyes looking at this squarie computer screen, after i blogged i'm gonna go for a run.

wanna say a big thank-you to my sweeties in Taisei.

it was really sweet of you guys.

Thankew chenbo for the treat at crystal jade.

Thankew kamleng for the treat at cafe cartel.

Thankew kamleng for the belt. (though you like it alot too, you still decided to give it to me.)

Thankew to this 'someone' for the esprit jacket.

Thankew Wendy for the pooh cup.

neoprints taken with my bestest colleague, ms lew kam leng. (on the extreme left)

my taisei colleagues.

my last day at Taisei ended.

i left happily in my colleague's car. took photos with some of my colleagues, though not all since some are out in the worksite. photos will be up soon.. ;)

i will miss ms. lew kam leng loads!! she's been my mentor, my 3-8 mate, my mother, my sister, my shopping khaki, my love advisor and my bestest colleague in Taisei. if not for her, my 6 months there would have been unbearable, thankew so much gurlie. i love the belt you've given me, thanks thanks thanks. hope to meet up with you soon for facial!! =) love the neoprints we've taken together with shirley. take again soon k! hee
p/s: she's the one married blissfully with 2 kids and still looking very good!

gonna loosen up myself for at least a week before starting my learning-driving preparation. Lac man! ;)

CAN SEE MY PEOW IN A FEW HOURS' TIME! *smilEs*

07/10/2005. Friday morning.
breakfast at northpoint.


my colleague, shirley's big breakfast, look at the amount of chilli!!!!!

right after, headed to sentosa for some relaxation and sun. applied tons of sunblock!! and my face's apparently peeling off............ -_-


this peacock fanned its beautiful feathers at me! ;) supposingly, it should mean lady luck is with me..hmm, but that friday night my lady luck didn't appear because all i'm accompanied with was tears. anyways, this male peacock stood there for quite some while but i think it wasn't attractive enough to 'seduce' his female fellowmates. hehe

my saturday was shining bright. i would say that i know him even better now, though i've much more to learn along this tedious happie-sad path. we will be the survivors of this love-ship. ;)

break up, fen-shou, these two words shouldn't hang in your mouth whenever a quarrel arises. it should be an undesired ending and not be treated as a solution.
i must remember this. i must i must. must try not to be too extreme, too.

meet up with qiqi that sat, too, for dinner. took neoprints!! ;) also went to kajiao junie at tcc!
in the end, caught a midnight show with peow. the red shoes. with the effect of eyes and ears getting 'protected' by peow's palms and fingers, i actually fell asleep!


qiqi's pretty slip-on heels. the black laces are so preeettty.

believe in no one but yourself.

anyone in this world can let you down, but not yourself.

people can hurt you and spoil your day, but there's only a you who can make the reverse.

allow no one to affect you. just believe in no one, but yourself.

lessons learnt makes you grow. it's painful to finally realise no one deserves your trust. once bitten twice shy. and what if it's been more than once?

a failure of a get-together is not about a person's share but two. no pain no gain. what i've gained is way above of what i've lost. it also means i'm another step closer to my ideals. people learn from their mistakes, isn't it? so things ain't as bad after all.

things change as we age. i might not be as passionate in love, might not be as thoughtful, might not be as childish and might not put in as much. but that's how things work. eeW~

Tong Meng Qi Yuan - Wait till we're old (is the title right?) starring Andy Lau.
--- life is a one-way road. bad thing is, there is no turnback.
--- life is a one-way road. good thing is, you only need to go through once.

most of the times, people just fail to understand what's good to them.
we are always looking for the better, but have we ever stay put to examine what we already have? subconsciously, we see unattained goals as the most precious and overlook things right infront of us. by the time you might regret or maybe you won't, it's your choice. you pave your path and you live with it.

may i make the right choice. ;)