My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with

i need you.

Monday, June 20, 2005

2days ago, 18th June 2005, second cold feet of my life ever since my daddy was admitted to sgh once. and please, no more.

my dear was sent to sgh that very evening. I dialed *100 to reach a civics ambulance. I've never done that before, trying to calm myself down while my dearie perspired in cold sweat all over. In the agony of severe spinning headache, it made him nauseous as he stood up or as he moves his head on the bed. His eyes were blinded under a piece of towel while he laid on the bed. that's to prevent him from having confused vision that would make him vomit again. The feeling must be terrible, letting his fears to get in control over his will, and he started saying things that triggered my tears to roll down....after like 3omins, the civics ambulance came, 2strong men knocked on the door, carried him out of the bed. vigorous movement/shakes caused another round of throw up into the plastic bag in his hand as he settled on the wheelchair.

Even when he was very much not in himself, he still spare a thought for me. i was too scared to feel anything then, other than calming him and myself down, not much help I could offer.
In the ambulance, I held his hand tight. His eyes were blinded under his bermudas, that I've brought along in case he needs to be warded. Luckily, he got discharged that very night. His ear was infected by virus. The doctor explained that his previous illness did not recover fully and the virus attacked his ear, causing giddiness and resulted in vomitting. Medicine was prescibed. Right after feeding him with one pill, indicating consume before meal, he got fast asleep. It has been a long time since he had rested well. Always got stressed up by this and that...poor him, you deserve a good good rest.

By sunday, he was pretty fine already. =) accompanied him the day although he was sleeping most of the time. He even bought deep-fried cereal prawns for my daddy, 'coz it's father's day!
thank goodness, everything happened fast, ended just as fast.
Still, it scared the wit out of me. it's like gonna lose someone so close to your heart. 2nd time I felt this..don't wish to undergo such thing again, stay healthy my dear. You're my precious.

Now he's back to work. my dear's sucha responsible lad. that's why I love him so muchhh..and that's just one good point of his. take good care my love.

okokie, getting back to work. though not very occupied lahh.. =p

something i would remember

this entire lifetime..

san signs off. 1:00 PM
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p r i n c e s s . s a n 3

life's too short to devote time dwelling over irreversible facts.

in my life, I wish upon eternal happiness with all my loved ones.

a bonus will be to see myself at the top of my career in another few years' time.

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2. Have all his love and attention.
3. Yakking nonstop with all my buds, anywhere anytime.
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