Thursday, June 30, 2005

when you are bored, what will YOU do?

For a narcisstic san, she'll be on photo-taking craze~

some of the pics.......


It's me..my smile is so plastic ;(


sad liao loh, bored gurl with no smile is no different from a dead zombie.


okie one last one :) beau-TI-ful hair with alil of muscles on my left arm?!
*never knew my left arm is strongggg..*

san signs off. 3:29 PM
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Wednesday, June 29, 2005

peow's sms (9.54p.m.) : "an instinct tells me I wanna see you tonight"

yeah lah, i'm very happie :)

and I cleared all doubts residing in me. Thought we facing difficulties in exchanging woes and things around us, in short, talking heart to heart together. All was baseless assumption; we have no problem joking with each other at all..kekee~
I assume-d just 'coz pms and all tiredness after work, I made an ASS out of U and ME!
*mr. lok jie hao's credit*

bought snacks from 7-11 at vista point, haha some ulu point in woodlands. we settled down at one bench somewhere and started our craps. of course plus some rou-ma-ba-ba words from us lah~ *don't tell you =X*

anyways I was saying, we crapped rightttt..

and he asked, "what will you do if I were to smoke?"
one big hater of smokers and smoke, "don't want you loh, I HATE SMOKERS!"
he: "thought you'll accept everything about me, even if it means I smoke...."
me: "just don't wanna say the thing you wana hear" =p

*not in exact wordings*

===:then he............place it in his mouth just liddat:====


___da dan!!! *hufff puffff hufff pufffffffff* I will extinguish it!___

====:look at dear's sullky sad kelian bu-shuang face:====


___hahhaa, okay lah guaiguai, I don't blow it off, I bite IT *hee*___

just one decilicious-yummy chocolate biscuit stick ;P

dearie, thanks for the night. small little thing is enough to coax your little gurlie. *muack*

san signs off. 5:00 PM
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Monday, June 27, 2005

quoting from miss joycee, aunt mary is here for me again~ arghhh
it screwed my mood upside down. swing my temperaments without my command. sheesh, feel like a shit now. arghhh

awfully unpleasant to get down to work when you're mentally and physically screwed up. my mind is not with me, even now. I'm roping my wandering soul back here to type this. trying to gather my thoughts..

wanna stay by my dearie. but when he talks to me, I ignore him. ignore him in the sense that I don't respond, just look at him blankly. sorrie dearie, if I make you feel helpless. I can't help it myself. Just wanna find a shelter in your arms and feel the love in our intimacy. but can't blame him too, for leaving me alone after trying for awhile. He doesn't know what's wrong with me, he only knows that something's just very wrong. my damn mouth just can't seem to be moving.

hope by the time I knock off later, i'm feeling better.

now ya having checkup at sgh, hope to hear from you very soon.

and jh ah, be a happie man. eh, nono, it's boy! you can do it wan, just tell yourself you can.

san signs off. 11:08 AM
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Saturday, June 25, 2005

meow meow meow~
Rolling in my bed for more than 2hours since 1 plus a.m., which makes it 3plus, and my body continues to toss from head to toe on the bed and kept changing position from left to right, up to down. oh man, and a bulb finally lights up.
IMMA HUNGRY! what took me so long to realise that?! perhaps my stomach discriminates the prata, hahaa, drink ice-teh at a prata shop and ate nothing close to a prata?! I deserve it man, for getting to sleep at around 4a.m. after gobbling a sandwich down my throat.

kowtow to me now right? slept only for less than 3hours k. pei fu myself~ hahaa.. =X

enjoyed to bits last night. hahaa, yakking all the way for hours. erm, only for two though. hee.
next friday once more time man! =)

friends, you may have plenty of them. to feel ultra comfortable and talk sky and mountain river and sea, haha, this title is reserved for sptc peeps. love you people, love you all. *muack*

meeting dearie later, see you honey~ :)

may all lovers

sky long ground lasting

san signs off. 9:50 AM
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Friday, June 24, 2005

what the fark! Here totally sucks big time! I'm so damn pissed now. Kena bitched for nothing.
I've asked my boss so many farking times that does he need my help, and he rejected again and again. Now that idiotic fat pig pet of his chatted with him on the phone, and someone heard my boss saying, "that gurl doesn't help me at all, just ask what time she can leave, end up I do everything." Hinting her she's a great help, choosing over me. Okay fine, you don't give me anything to do. And after subsequent times me offering my help, he retained his stand and insisted there's really nothing for me to do, so I need not stay. Fark fark fark, okie, getting vulgar but I don't care. He's insulting me okay. JOb is always so sucky for me. First is olive, now is taisei. DAmn bosses. He appeared to be so nice, and at my back, pushing stabs again and again. Colleague told me I should ask more, even though I've already repeated myself like a desperate soul for 5times?!!

feel like quiting. so what if you pay me 1600?!! And though most of the time i'm free, it's coz I'm fast with my work. And precisely my work scope is all that I've fulfilled. I do all junk stuff here okie! Arrange for servicing for printers, copiers and whatever shit when computers corked up. Pour and get coffee or ice tea ready for guests and also need to clear them if pantry auntie has left. Have to take care of another 3bosses' laundries, be it dirty or clean I need to touch it and make sure I know which shirt/pants belong to whom. Fark. Okie, that's all miscellaneous. I do purchase orders for stationeries, safety boots and other shitty stuff that every other staff requests. Also, must always keep track to ensure those A4 and A3 paper doesn't run out for printing. This goes for stationeries and all files you could find in this darn office. Not enough, need to print out worker passes and staff passes everyday. Then, in addition if there's any other events I will follow up on the catering and whatever food and drinks they need. I feel that I've done my part as an admin assistant here, and he said I didn't offer my help. Fark him! Woah, I can burn down this whole office now. I offered HELP, you heard it?!! you must be deaf if you did not.

No more next time. Even if I'm gonna work till october or get my ass out of here before oct, I will never look for admin job again. I study business admin not to be an admin staff you know, who does all junk duties. Damn it! If not for temp, you think I will be satisfied?!!

DAmn, nothing can simmer myself down now. ARGHHHHHh~ nobody steps on my grave now, else you surely be kicked into the farking coffin
ARGHHH

san signs off. 2:25 PM
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Thursday, June 23, 2005

A lot like love, enjoyed this show alot :)
To get two in love, it just needs pinches of love. big pinches, to be exact.
To get two in love and together, it takes more than love. Fate. If both are affliliated to cross each other's path even after hiccup-years of separation, that's fate.
Fate is something you can wish for, but nothing close to the boundary of pleading.
What may comes, will come. Happie waiting.

Glad that I didn't lose sight of you...

my sweetie got me a dice. haha, a wooden-made square dice with 3-sides of 'love-me' and 3-sides of 'love-me-not'. hahaa, and the instruction says whenever I would like to know if my dearie loves me or loves me not, please toss the dice. toss it three times, and trust what you see by the third toss.



and so, after the movie, we tossed it at my place. he tossed it first, and majority turned out to be 'love me not'!! it means san love peow NOT. SO inaccurate righttttt.. then it's my turn, mostly were 'love me'. concluded to be peow loves me.
*luffs* sucha cute thing you've gotten for me. Thanks dearie, muack~ really love you alottt..
Thank god I found you.
yesternight, a night to never forget..for both you and me.

tomorrow's tennis! hee mony is joining us too. Hurray! =) hahhaa, poor jh has to send mi joycee and mony home. who asks you to pass your driving license so fast! =X

san signs off. 11:16 AM
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Wednesday, June 22, 2005

next month, exactly at this date, it'll be our 1year anniversary.

22nd of every month denotes a significant meaning.

though as time goes by, this day isn't as exciting as before. Not b'coz I've grown tired of it, but conversely, I'm so much inclined to him. there's a saying, if everyday happens to be a joyous day with your lover, everyday is a valentine's day. same applies for our special day. What makes it special is not the date itself. it's our valentine who emphasized on the difference of this special day.

There's you, and there's me. 2 naked hearts met on that very day, 22nd July 2004...

confession time. did expected him to forget what's today. sparing a thought on his hectic schedule. and not surprisingly, he really did. still, was dampening to know your dearie let his mind slipped away about this date. Hmm, thinking he'll also forget about our 1st year's, that kinda mark my boring day to be even duller. ;

plus today, it'll be 3days since i've met him. hmm, and when i heard him saying, "maybe tonight i'll go over your place *pause* but i didn't bring your racket along leh"
hais, when I heard that, all i can think of is, you're only gonna meet me 'coz you wanna return it to me, and not b'coz you miss me you wana see me.

now that your shop has that auntie agnes today, I can least anticipate your sms or call. don't even bother reply my sms, and what's new~ *getting unreasonable*

whatever, today should be my happie day. forget it, i'm not gonna brood over it and spoil my happie-week-frequency. shall look forward to tomorrow, thought it's not 22nd it's 23rd, gonna meet kawen xiao jie. can do some shopping, hee~ and gotta get tibits for tomorrow company's buffet for all big bosses and few representatives of our co. sub-contractors. like not boring~~~~ and i'm arranging for the food and stuff. gotta stay later on friday, so meet you guys (joycee jh ling) at about 830/9p.m. for tennis. I won't anyhow fly plane wan hohhhhhhh................ =p

And peeps, esp ling, some pics in my hp had been uploaded to my multiply.com. check it out. =)
under my photo link, if you don't get it.

boring work begins.

san signs off. 12:48 PM
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005

oh my god!! do I really so bapokkkk..~~~ ARGHhhHhhhh..

there's one japanese here, my dunno-what-project-control-manager, he is supposingly the most shuai yandao here. *among the japs lah* his hair's longgg and lurves to twist his hair and and he's pretty tall too. taller than me at least. hair shorter than me, to be a normal man. twisting his hair in a whirling motion, something hard to believe, he is those man-man-not-gu-niang type!but to my disbelief, one day as i was walking to the ladies, i SAW IT!!!!! oh mannn, at that point, he looks so GAy-iSHHhh *eWWwwW :0* okokiee, back to what the bapok-pok part, one aircon maintainenace uncle said I LOOKS LIKE HIM! oh man, *trying to dig my ears and* "HUH??!!", i went stunned. what theee........toot -_- and he specially added on, "especially when you smile, looks so much like his." piangs, still commented we've fu qi xiang~ oh please, spare me. please. then I discretely questioned, "so you're saying i'm ugly loh" hahhaa, and guess what he said?

......

He: "no lah, he's the best-looking guy here. don't you think so?"
me: "so i'm very shuai to you lah!"
He: "no lah, you're so pretty..but you look like him lah.. *luffs*"
me: -_-
He: "look like him not good meh..he really handsome mah"

......

pengs! he sounded so gay when he was praising his looks. *eWww* whatever, it just proves I can be a convincing bapok-pok okie. not everyone is up to it k. hahaa, whatever lah~ so used to hearing that liao. hahhaa~ resembles a shuai ge also not bad lah. thank god, not some ah pig ah dog loh..

tonight meeting up with mony and ling at causeway point. good, can chat longer since so near all our houses, maybe not mony lah. =X eat what eat what?! my everyday's lunch here is never filling.....poor me. And meeting up with kawen xiao jie this thursday at bishan. euneun, maybe meeting her too. but haven't fix the date leh.

yeah! it's one p.m. liaooo! my time to rest soon, though i'm always resting lah..hahaa..

530! please be here faster leh!

san signs off. 12:38 PM
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Monday, June 20, 2005

2days ago, 18th June 2005, second cold feet of my life ever since my daddy was admitted to sgh once. and please, no more.

my dear was sent to sgh that very evening. I dialed *100 to reach a civics ambulance. I've never done that before, trying to calm myself down while my dearie perspired in cold sweat all over. In the agony of severe spinning headache, it made him nauseous as he stood up or as he moves his head on the bed. His eyes were blinded under a piece of towel while he laid on the bed. that's to prevent him from having confused vision that would make him vomit again. The feeling must be terrible, letting his fears to get in control over his will, and he started saying things that triggered my tears to roll down....after like 3omins, the civics ambulance came, 2strong men knocked on the door, carried him out of the bed. vigorous movement/shakes caused another round of throw up into the plastic bag in his hand as he settled on the wheelchair.

Even when he was very much not in himself, he still spare a thought for me. i was too scared to feel anything then, other than calming him and myself down, not much help I could offer.
In the ambulance, I held his hand tight. His eyes were blinded under his bermudas, that I've brought along in case he needs to be warded. Luckily, he got discharged that very night. His ear was infected by virus. The doctor explained that his previous illness did not recover fully and the virus attacked his ear, causing giddiness and resulted in vomitting. Medicine was prescibed. Right after feeding him with one pill, indicating consume before meal, he got fast asleep. It has been a long time since he had rested well. Always got stressed up by this and that...poor him, you deserve a good good rest.

By sunday, he was pretty fine already. =) accompanied him the day although he was sleeping most of the time. He even bought deep-fried cereal prawns for my daddy, 'coz it's father's day!
thank goodness, everything happened fast, ended just as fast.
Still, it scared the wit out of me. it's like gonna lose someone so close to your heart. 2nd time I felt this..don't wish to undergo such thing again, stay healthy my dear. You're my precious.

Now he's back to work. my dear's sucha responsible lad. that's why I love him so muchhh..and that's just one good point of his. take good care my love.

okokie, getting back to work. though not very occupied lahh.. =p

something i would remember

this entire lifetime..

san signs off. 1:00 PM
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Saturday, June 18, 2005

okay, i've no choice but to blog.

I needa wasteeeeeee timeeeeeee....

Time report: now the clock is ticking at 9.46a.m.

oh man, another 2hours more to go. Hee, 'coz I requested to leave at 12 instead of 1230 today. Wanna get down to the courts asap to whack those belated-hit-balls (which I was supposed to play lastnight!).. WHOSE FAULT?! hahaaa, joyce jh and LING should knowwww.

Joyce, this sickly gurlie *she claims to be sympathised*, came all the way from kovan to woodlands just to drink 1glass of ice teh-o and get 1 cleo magazine from woodgrove's 7-11, yesternight. There were ling, jh, peow and of course that frail-sickly gurlie joyce with me at woodgrove's coffeeshop, that is famous for its prata, which i think so lah.. the 2 gentlemen was late! only get their butts down the chair at around 11pm. hahaa, both men was late directly/indirectly b'coz of me! peow, 'coz of me being unreasonable so got pissed; and jh.. *prepare to laugh, and get tissue paper ready in your hand, in case your saliva.....* he droved there for the first time, and i told him to park at my deck carpark, hahaa thinking he wouldn't know how to get to woodgrove mah..Then he reached my carpark , and me, again, trying to direct him to woodgrove..For the 1st attempt, he walked to fuchun community centre, which obviously shows he was on a wrong wrong track. Then I told him to return back to my hdb's lift lobby. "your back should face the lift and move to your right." hahhaa..then instead of retaining his position, he TURNED right. I didn't meant TURN right, i clearly instructed him to move to your right without changing your positon. hahaa.. Then when he finally grasped what I've been saying, he started criticising on my give-direction-or-instruction-skill. "don't know how to give then don't give lah. you can just ask me to walk straight, i'll siam the letterbox myself! won't be so dumb to knock onto it!" I thought he might be really that toooopid you see, so I told him to move to your right and walk straight up, when by saying straight is GOOD ENOUGH.
okay, i'm misleading lah! cannot meh! let you sweat since no tennis mah, wo yong xin liang ku okay. And it's your fault also! mi ling and you walked once from my house to woodgrove okay, so it's your lousy memory fault! *don't-care-it's-ur-fault-face*
we chatted from 10 to 12plus. then buay tahan, all wanna sleep already. lucky joyce, can save on your cabfare lastnight! better be grateful to jh!
And ling! better book the court for us hohhhhh............... :) hee

later gonna get back to school for tennis. Oooops, did I already mention about it. too excited, pardon me. wonder if peow would wait for me, or he would go home on his own first to sleep. hmm.......
oh yah, he left my house at about 245a.m. initial plan was he staying over at my place since it's so late and he's too tired to drive, so might as well sleep over. but too bad, he can't really fall asleep. must be my small bed that has drove him nuts, summore i'm tossing left and right, sure he can't sleep. or b'coz he's not used to sleeping without a short drizzle over his bod, though he had already bathed at home before meeting us. or maybe he can only get fast asleep on his own bed. so many reasons huh~ kekeee, but it's alright dearie, i'm still surviving. 3 hours sleep only hoh! *power san*
hope you had slept well on your own bed *muack*

always quarrelling.

sucha turn-off.

san signs off. 9:42 AM
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Thursday, June 16, 2005

joycee's feedback was i havent been blogging since last saturday. which initially thought was untrue, 'coz i subconsciously thought i've done so on monday. hahahaa, it was not that sotong joycee was blur, it was me. how can a smartie me becoming to be a squid??!!

nothing much to update, that's why it was left stagnant. life's boring when all you can see is walls in the office. pc screen. same old common applications running on your pc screen. repetitive flow of reading ms. a blog den ms. b blog den mr. c blog....and the list goes on....den bored enough, i could pop into a same blog thousand times a day! just to check if there's any prompt post by them. see, how pathetic i am stooping to be now. that's all boredness FAULT! darn it!

ate old chang kee's currypuff for lunch. hmm, stomach is grumbling..

and i'm with specs today too. left eye is bounded with discomfort. peow said it's alittle swollen, looks infected. so i better listen to him and stop wearing contacts for, perhaps a day.
oh! i bought a few tops on wed. cheap cheap tops, which caught my eyes. lurve it! need more clothings lahhhh..esp that espirit skirt! and something more on my shoe-shelf?too little now lahhh..and and i seriously think my eyebags are worsening..need concealer also. all above mentioned requires the brutal-man-creation: money cash money atm money! of course brutal lah, people go around committing crimes, more than half b'coz of $$$$. evil creation. and made men slog for it too...................... -_-

andddddd first it started with lei! saying i look like a bapok when i put on specs. and nowww! jh and ling, claimed i truly looks like one! don't care~ even if yes, it's one successful one k! *smirks* 1st msn msg from joycee, "sweetie bapok". bapok bapok lah, bapok-s are artificial pretty woman, i don't mind to stick to that title. somemore, mi shang shang xia xia zhen cai shi liao, what to be scared of?! but see no touch *snob*

yesternight, both of us were unhappie again. hmm, why am i never fail to try too hard. try too hard to pull myself to wait for him, 'coz? i wanna see him. in the end, he was unhappie at me, i was too tired to feel anything. just thinking.. another boring scenario of ours. maybe it's for what i've msged him, that simmered his anger. yeah, it's me stopping the quarrel, once again.

enough of that.

tomorrow night tennis. =) hee, lurve tennis nightttt..whack the balls with all might! hit you hit you i hit you! joyce u better come early hoh! and ling also leh...................don't sleep lah, san tired also come and playyyy..saturday working also come and play, don't fly plane hohhhhhhh.....lucky there's still jh! we play first loh, wait for them. 2 slow gurls =p then maybe, someone would come after his work and make my night. or maybe another broken dream..shan't think~

tonight tired. gonna sleep early. not going anywhere with anyone. just at home.

san signs off. 3:01 PM
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Saturday, June 11, 2005

life's, undoubtedly, getting suckier here at work. EW ~_~

Whole morning, been occupying myself with all the blogs I can find. Even stumbled into some porn-blog with those naked-movie-clips.. These peeps are surely more bo-liao than me. Pity them. Even so, still left with like 45mins???!!!! DAMN. Why am I so grumpy? eeeeeeeeeee..

here I recalled upon what my brudder has once advised.
Life's not always pleasant. Bound to hit onto thorns and nails that makes you go OUCH.. You're sad, you will feel the agony, still. Then why not adopt the other version. Take it easy, things come & go. What goes up, will eventually falls down. vice versa

yeaps, maybe i should. i should digest it and no more one ear in another ear out..

helped peow to print the entry form for STA tournament, commencing in july. JIAYOU! produce a better result :)

a confession of mine. was unreasonable to dearie peow lastnight for a short while. *apologies*
forgive my mood swing, muacks~

today's tennis club's freshmen orientation day camp. :) time, indeed, fliessssss~
i've already graduated and passed out my v-president post. missed those daysssss..
having fun, fooling around, crap till we drop.. *reminscing*
hoping to meet up with them tonight, if possible
hoping to see dearie peow tonight, if possible

san signs off. 11:35 AM
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Friday, June 10, 2005

So scary ~_~
Made a blunder at work.....
didn't scan a news article that's construction-related, 2 days ago. DAMN! 'coz the newspaper was not on my table that day. And people simply get the paper from the office without returning. Okay, that makes my lousiest day at work ever. Boss was fuming just now. He looked so ferocious, fiery enough to burn the office down. exaggerating..but he was banging things here and there.. So much about being excited to play tennis later on :(

so anxious just now. Making calls everywhere to search for straitstime. Finally found it, credit to my dad *hug* however, my boss said he has requested for a fax for the news article. at least I tried. Hais, hate making mistake at work you know. :( so saddd now, how I wish I could dig a hole and hide myself now. Try for the next time, better better better, it better be!

told you I hate working life. who like it anyways. so upset now. blunders blunders blunders
i'm just useless. hate the feeling of being a redundant mistake-prone bum! forget ittttt..
life's gotta keep going in taisei. gotta work till not-so-soon.

san signs off. 10:01 AM
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Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Set my mind.

* Apply for SIM BA. It's gonna be fun :) i hope so. you peeps should know, so long you've a diploma cert in BA in local polytechnics, you'll be able to direct entry to its 2nd year. =) so this whole thing would only take 2years for me to collect my bachelor degree. 2 years from jan'2006, I would be a degree holder okay. big deal~~~ -_-
at least a hide-out for me, away from this battle frontline where people refuse to put away their masks. a habit that's too hooked to kick..
Also, I can go on a 2-3weeks overseas exchange in Melbourne. should be in the final year. *smilEs*

** Check out on study loan. Definitely need that. No more addition loads for my darling parents. Too hard on them. anyways, that shouldn't be of much hassle. It will be even better if I could go on loan for my overseas exchange trip's accomodation, air-ticket etc. must make plans in advance. :)

*** Continue my work in Taisei. Mummy said it benefits my CPF. dearie said to earn such an amount while doing almost nothing is a good deal. who won't agree right?! my fellow best-friend colleague also agrees with dearie peow. So I shall go with the flow. ^-^

okay, stating all these down stablises all my wild bumpy thoughts. they almost crushed me alright. but everything's back to normal now. *hee* happie san again.

And to add on, happie san comes in a package. supportive mama&papa&brudders mould a happie san. with a mr.lee aka dearie peow 59 makes a definite happie san.
our road is full of humps. have to consistently overcome them. whenever it surfaces, we fight, we struggle, we almost drown and to know, we've won the battle. It's something we're proud of. Or put it as i'm proud of it, that's more like it. *smiling away*
it hasn't been easy, looking at my saddening posts in the past you'll know, but still we hit the odds and brought home victory.
but please lah, lesser tests for us pleaseeeeee.. very painful, you know. you know right, dearie..

what's wrong with alvin, i'm not sure. but gi's state pains my heart. she's crying dude! be a gentleman, and clear the air. by just saying you need time is not sufficient~ explain to her, let her understand. else, what for being together?!

man, i'm bored here. haha, but kinda used to it. most of the times, i'm free. so my money is quite easy money huh~ lemme enjoy this moment of envious *eggs throwing everywhere* =P

okokie, will be back here very soon, i forecast.

san signs off. 3:53 PM
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Monday, June 06, 2005

Last saturday, actually did wrote-in another posting. But I saved as draft.
Have not a zit of intention to let anyone to see it already. A spur of moment.

That day, didn't tag along with my colleagues for the dimsum yum-yum. Got myself home, after dazing in the train and slowly strolled along the usual path till I'm at my doorstep. Bathed, dry my hair *yes, you didn't hear wrongly! I'm starting to use a hair-dryer, just in case you don't know I've never used a dryer myself before* and dragged a jaded self on my comfy mattress. Slept my afternoon away. By the time I woke up, it was already in the evening, dinner time! So hungry, skipped my lunch so stomach was growling non-stop. Only turned on my mobile till then.

To update, my dearie was at my place not long from I was awake. A hard time for him, tough struggle for me. "yi ren rang yi bu", was the finale conclusion. Staye d over that night at his place, we talked things out and let each other see our problem in a likely more ideal angle that we both share.
He has his loose ends to tie and personal problems to attend to. I know I'm of not much help, but at least pouring into me will lighten his mood and let him realise he was never alone. So don't ever isolate yourself from me again. Don't belittle the impact of what Small little things could be up to, they are always more than capable to pile themselves up. Surprise you with a sneak attack and don't be startled when that one big pile is gonna haunt you till you collapse.
Nevertheless, don't be worry.
My hugs are open for you, there to embrace the troubled you with heartfelt care.
From now on, never coop yourself in a world of yours again, letting flowing troubles to circulate in that small tiny suffocating dark room, with no escape.

Men, as usual, have their own way of thinking. Own way of solving problems. Thought that's the best way. Thought it's absolutely error-free.

Human err. So yeaps, let's learn from mistakes.
We learn as we grow.

My brudder and his gf broke up last friday. Hais, his gf is a china-gurl, who is a few years older than him, initiated with an all-time breakaway, "I need to focus in my studies". -_- Don't quite understand as she expressed in her sms-es, she doesn't treat this as a r/s as things haven't really started in her point of view. That's ridiculous and Absurd-ly nonsensical. 'coz she was the one who told my brudder he was her bf!
Whatever it is, she's not suitable for him, no matter in terms of age and thinking.
Brudder sealed his feelings pretty well. Study hard ah!
you're still very young, young enough to get a few more =p

Giv and alvin facing another difficult phase right now. alvin's perhaps frustrated over certain issues, which he wanna solve it in his own way and not letting you to know. Just let him cool down, as he said, he needs time. Give it to him then. Be strong gurlie :) you can make use of the time to do some thinking too.

that's why I claim

men are all alike.

san signs off. 11:47 AM
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Saturday, June 04, 2005

Last posting mentioned about meeting those gurls for dinner right~ Real real big big woman gossip blarblar session..Talked about our friends' friend's toooooopid dumbest bf.
Can't believe my ears to hearing the existence of such bloodsuckers women, who have apparently utterly disgraced we GURLS' tainty image; and we would all agree it was all these idiotic senseless men, whose unbeatable tolerance allowed those unreasonable requestSS.
dui nv ren de lian!

Abit vague right, the way I phrased it. Not very nice to go into details, when the involved parties are not even my friends. So let's skip it.

Played night tennis at ling's condo with jiehao and joyce. :) had fun, how NOT to??!! with king crapper jiehao around..hahha~ Anyways my skills level dropped tremendously. My forehand is gone~! And contact lens are playing with my vision, can't even see the balls clearly, how to play!! but still, had fun fun fun. Weird to say, I'm not very tired now. Slept late for so many nights, maybe i'm immuuuunnnnnned.

Okay peeps, i'm rejected. NTU doesn't want me. *sobs* pretty upset now though I've told myself to prepare for the worst already. Haiz, this kinda feeling just can't be helped....
And all he can say is, don't think too much. He can't seem to be bothered. Why can't he put himself in my situation at my age at this critical time, all he could think of is what he thinks what he wants what he needs what he wanna achieve. HELLO, I'm not you. why tell me you'll give happiness when you're creating my miseries. already upset, now getting even more.
The worst thing could happen to an attached lady is, her bf doesn't even try to understand her and care for her.

My colleague wanna treat me to lunch later at the dunno-what-dimsim-restaurant at chinatown. But don't really feel like going. See hows. Very kind of her, she did that 'coz she said she doesn't know how to cheer me up so don't use mouth do it in action, thanks jingling :)

when you are sad, you are sad.

san signs off. 9:39 AM
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Thursday, June 02, 2005

Another hour to flying over to cityhall ;)

Have a date with ying joyce lei and junie =) silly junie to ask whether I would mind if she's to turn up. Of course NOT!! that's why i used the word 'silly'...........

This morning my message counter almost explode. SO MANY messages from peeps coming in..Hee fingers abit suan lahh, but so glad to receive so many messages :) esp alot of continous oness..Got in touch with one of my ex-colleague. He was very nice to me when I was under him. Very friendly also. Remembering at that point I was smitten by him *of course that temporaily flame had blown out :)* And he dropped a message in my friendster, saying it's the other way round. Anyways, those were in the past. somthing in which had Already long ago swept away from my mind. ::if not for his sms yesternight:: No other meaning, only that it's something in my precious memory box that sweeten my mood once in a blue blue moon. Appreciate it my 'ex-colleague', name shan't be disclosed...

thinking of my dearie, but hmm, don't know why I don't have anything in mind to sms him. So waiting for his, and guess what; he thought 'my weather isn't good' kekee..silly~ he said he's abit sian-sian today, must be the studying part stressing him out. Take it easy dear, study hard but don't over-work or over-stress. *give you a muack*

30mins to knocking off.

ntu letter! where are you.

waiting is such a misery chore

san signs off. 4:25 PM
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Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Peeled away my old blog skin-ny.

Hee~ *smiling awayyyyyy*

Will you believe me.....
I spent about 1 1/2hr editing the template at WORK. haha~~
Yesh! You just gotta be convinced that my time management is excellent :) kekee..

Jiehao said it's nice but looks as if I'm rebracing myself after a break-up.
Mis-perception. Just wanna shout out, san loves herself lots lots lots.
But of course, everyone is also aware.. san loves HIM even more. Shan't spell out TOO clearly lahhh huh~

Arranged tennis on this friday at Ling's condo. Oh man! :) can't stop bringing up the smile. hee
It's 9-11pm. I might die on saturday, again ;( but it's okay. Wanna hit some balls. Before that meeting Ling & jiehao at queensway to restring my racket. hee hee
dunno dearie wanna join us not, we are too shallow, in terms of skills, to play with him..
You should study at home, so count you out. =)

Saturday, right after work having a tea session at chinatown. one of its dim sum restaurant with some fellow colleagues. It closes at 3p.m. So right after that I can chill out with HIM. So happie. So looking forward.

NTU, still hearing nothing from ya. Friends gotten letters already. But why not me and junie?
There's hope, still huh? *hopingggg soooooo*

Today my company has a monthly 'safety' meeting. Starting at only 7p.m. can imagine what time it's gonna end huh~ *sian-sian look* the reason why we call it the safety meeting, it's 'coz peeps turning up for the very very 1st meeting, can't be bothered at all. The moment boss said "safety meeting!" hahhaa, everyone would guai-guai assemble..hahhaa~
Not very funny lah, just to share mahh..

Meeting ying & joyce & perhaps lei for dinner at fish&co tomorrow. happiehappiehappie
long while since I last saw joyce and ying!

GSS is here worrr..and i've yet to shop!!!! Argghhhh
no money lahhhh.. eyed on one espirit denim skirt already, gonna get it, matter of time hee
Now that daph is working, shall shop with her soon *yeah!*

san signs off. 5:26 PM
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