Don't know how to get my thoughts rolling. Too many things in my head.
They frustrate me. They upset me. They are killing me. They are pushing me for an answer. They wana actions. *sigh*

Hearing seeing looking at what joycee is undergoing wrench everyone's heart. Her love story has fast past the bedtime, everyone knows the story has marked with a ridiculous ending, yet the main role actress refuses to face it. She is digging for an answer. But an answer is meaningless when broken pieces are beyond salvage. You gota admit things between you and him are all in the past. Nothing revive it. Nothing can revive it again. Childish him has chose another gurl, so what if he said he still love you? The reality is, he is with another gurl now. Whatever he try to explain, all is plain bull. Forget about this heartless jerk. It's the memory that is holding you back, it's no more the current him. No one can help you, except yourself. We are here to lend our ears, physically & mentally for you but if you rather to continue indulging yourself in his words and accusations, all of us shall just step back. 'coz till now, you still choose to believe him, one who has betrayed your trust. Take it or not, he has changed, he already lied to you. He did. Just believe it!

Okay, I'm fuming. I understand the pain she's having now, but who hasn't been hurt before? Others can let go the past and move towards an ever-changing future, just why can't you?! *sigh*

A friend said once, "not that you can't let go, it's that you can't find a reason to, that's why you are still holding on"
Isn't it good that you can't cook up reason to let go? Some may agree, some may think otherwise.
When you realise loving someone is not enough to keep your love burning, will you try harder and tolerate all pains or thinking to let go your hand and give him his freedom?
I love this man alot. He's my miracle, if you call it. I put away my pride when it comes to quarrel. Almost lost my old self in the process. Maybe this is love. The power of love, too much for anyone to take.
And maybe he is a man. His pride holds even more. He refused to budge. He could storm into another room, leaving me in a separate closing.
Pause to think, we have so many differences. our Thinking, the way we handle problems, the personality we have..
It's our incompatibility causing all our quarrels? Think so..
You are a man, whose behaviour so much resembles your dad. You hate people to instruct you what to do, what not to. You resent people restricting your movements, your actions. Whatever you feel is right, you would go ahead, this sentence sounds so familiar rightt? Repeated it umpteem times.
On the contrast, I'm one who do control people. I'm one who can never be as tolerant as your mother.
Reality brings heart-throbs. You won't change, and I can hardly change too. Not just hiding things from me will help. Such a long road ahead, if we were to walk through together, how to survive with closed communication.
you can live without 'investing' so much in those activities, yet you choose to do it doubly. Even knowing my discontentment. I already gave in by allowing it, just asking you to 'invest' lesser. just LESSER. You still can't do it.
i'm a control freak. I admit.'coz i'm a xiao nv ren.
A da nv ren, works with independence. Won't meddle your affairs. don't you think we are back to the same point again?

Do you know what you need and want?
Do you need me? Do you want me?
Hais.
Why are there so many problems? Why can't we just be happily together?
Why can't you accomodate alittle?

Ya studying all the way this week.
Take this time for us to think whether our presence in each other's life is for the good or bad.