I would say I'm a weird person. A person who can't ignore the past and march towards a future that's shaped with unforseen events. Someone who always make life difficult for not only herself, but to people who matter alot. One who pines for a simplified life as since when life has defined itself to be so complicated to understand.

Bang myself! Even after punching my mind with umpteem times of reminder, i still committed a same old mistake. These belonged to a past, too sensitive to worth raking up, I'm so aware of that. I shouldn't ruin a day just like that, b'coz you simply did nothing offending. But also, it just mean your past casted a print in my head, hard to swallow yet gotta force down my throat, reason being I wanna be with you. I may fail to control my emotions again, nonetheless, shouldn't you take a look at how hard I've tried to not bring up. Maybe you overlook it, yes or no, have to admit I'm sandra and always, I will be this sandra.

I sat on my bed, plugging my ears to songs, repeating them once, twice, thrice.. ..
I think I'm a failure. Possessing a worthless school days memory may be one. Producing substandard work during internship, receiving direct criticism from supervisor makes up to two. Not mature when comes to dealing emotions brings me to three. Upsetting my dear love and myself for not feeling special at all, getting a total of four.
Not good at work. Not good at accademic. Not good at maintaing relationships, be it friendship or romance or kinship, none. So what am I? A useless and worthless nobody.
Got myself lowering to be A Pessimistic Ass is what I'm up for?! Yes, for now I guess so.

Better get some direction in this freaky life soon before I forgets what's L I F E