Monday, February 28, 2005

SOOOOOOOO HAPPIE!!!!

*smilEsSssssssssssssssssssssss*

my dear came down to chinatown and have lunch with me :)
Who will expect this??!!
No one including me!

Okay looking at all my exclaimations, you can understand how how how cheery I am.

zhen de xiexie ni qin ai de ^-^
you've add glow to my gloomy day.
*muAck.muAck*

Peeps!
Wish me luck to complete my itp project which is due due due due due tomorrow!

honey sp I Love You
Sorrie to kept doing those unnecessaries that spoil our days.
Have a good rest yeah..
And hope to seeYa soonnnn

To: Junie Lei Qi Eun
Thanks for the lovely tube dress!
it's sooooo sweet keke..
shall wear it to let you guys see on this one fine day huh..
hee
*hug*

san signs off. 3:29 PM
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Saturday, February 26, 2005

He lost his way, that's why he's late.

*forgiven* :)

Don't know what's happening....

Fear stepping in instead of excitement upon knowing to see him at 1010pm.

You're complicated.
I just can't seem to understand you.
You'll be curious why am I so keen to work my brain and come up with countless questions
Me myself I've no clue.
Have you ever lie to me?
Ever??
If your answer is No, you've already lied. :(

What's OVER SAN?????
*pulling my hairrrrrrr*

All & all is all b'coz
I love you.
Overestimatedly.

san signs off. 10:02 PM
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here i am blogging away..
in his room
Alone in his room

He's now with his JC friends..
And I'm right here waiting for him to come home.
which I seriously think he's already late.
'coz it's 5 minutes past 930pm.
Broken Promise.

Like what I've messaged him
sometimes I do wonder who am I to him.
Am I just another gurlfren of his?
Or he simply treats all his gurl the same?
He didn't answer to my doubts.
Just asking me "dun be liddat dear"
Why are all these overwhelming insecurities feeding me like nobody's business?!

And reminding myself that all the deadlines are pushing closer and closer
And I'm nowhere done.
I'm feeling so stressed up here!
I'm feeling so used in the office!
I'm just shit-itfied!
Argggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~

I'm being paranoid I know
No one will understand~

No one is there for me.
And I'm not expecting any uninvitee either

Yes.
It's 945pm already.
And he's still not home.

I shall always be the one waiting for his return
when I can't explain WHY

san signs off. 9:37 PM
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005

"Zhe shi ni guo de zui kai xin de sheng ri ma?"

"Shi. shi. Yin wei you ni de pei ban qin ai de."

Honey, nothing beats having you to celebrate my birthday.
I didn't expect much from you 'coz valentine's was over not for long.

But you spread happiness to every inche on 21.02.05, the moment you held my hands.

A pity we didn't take any photo 'coz no one brought digital camera.
The food was fabulously tasty! :)
Ktv at lucky chinatown's Kbox was simply awesome and not forgetting to say it was a total
B L I S S

Those love duets brought warmth to our freezing cold hands feets and faces. :)
Enjoyed myself alot.
Same for you dearie?
The funny part was me switching on the analog whenever his voice went offffff... *hee*
Love hugging you when the central air-con system tried freezing me.
Love kissing you and emerging my vision into yours..
Leaning against your shoulder and closed my eyes..
All these are just too beautiful.
Don't think I've covered what I've felt that night.

Anyways, we sang for 4hours!!
That's a feat alright!
kekee..
With you around, EVERYthing just seemed fun.

You should have put on the necklace for me dearieee..
Next time you put it on for me okay ^-^

The month of february is such a blessing :)(:

san signs off. 1:30 PM
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Monday, February 21, 2005

21.02.05

MOI BIRTHDAY

hee..
soooo harpie..
to receive my friends' greeting sms-es...
and of course!!!!
my dearie's msg cheered me up the most :)

my last night was ruined with chains of nightmares.
I dreamt of someone who is soooo intimidating..
Someone who is already out of my life
but sneaked into my dreams!!!
You've infringed 'san.dream.copyright'
And the most eeky one............
my dear left meeeeee :(((
whatever it is, I didn't had a good sleep.
All thanks to my dreamSsss

I'm now in my 20's!
Should I be happie?!
'coz I'm just getting OLD
But also getting more and more cheng shou MEI *hee*

San really agrees with you deariee ^-^
this 20years, I've been living for a purpose.
It's to find you and pull you into my world.
Now that I did, this is my greatest birthday gift from sky above.
Every word here is heartfelt :)
*muAck*

And thanks every single one who has not forgotten san..
Especially my sptc maties!
san appreciates *smilEs*

san signs off. 9:33 AM
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Sunday, February 20, 2005

my dear junnie is sick!!
gurl ahh..
please please please
sympathise your body
if you don't, san empathise!!
please please please :)

May junnie get well soon!

my itp project is due on 1st March.
One week lead time is counting down.
I'm still left with the usability test and its outcome evaluation!!
web designer and photographer!
karen and I are counting on you!!

And my another two module project are also alarming us with its nowhere-far deadline.
the worst thing is we haven't really start.
have to be on our toes and get our butt down to serious work!!!

Tahan another 3weeks.
2 module C.A. papers..
Thereafter, I'm officially OUT of SP.
hee..Singapore Poly huh~~~ not soon peow

Last 3days undeniably joyous.
reason is him.
He was all mine for the 3 days.
No one else's.
I felt so xin fu..
*smilEs*

And i wanna say something!!!
I got a ultra big pimpleeeee somewhere near my eyebrow!!
think i'm so dead
sleeping will do me a favour rightttt.. hee
Let's hope so. :)

hereby, thank you ruixiang!
his pc is working just fine now
all thanks to you and your friend.
Sorrie for all the inconvenience yeah..

hmmm..waiting for my dear to msg me.
he's busy i guess..
And he should be away for holiday this coming week.
which means I gota starta saving all "i miss you" into my heart closure while he's away.. :(

san signs off. 7:28 PM
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Thursday, February 17, 2005

Sucky day.

Any angel around?
I need a partime guardian for NOW :(

Someone please save me!
I needa get out of this intern company......................
Working definitely isn't easy.

But hello san!
Wake up!
Face the music.
No way anyone could avoid.

Feeling so tiny here.
So not appreciated.
A tiny fry flying around, waiting to get smack any minute from now.

So much I wanted to share it with him
but.......
forget about it.

2-in-1 dream
fat hope!

san signs off. 3:26 PM
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

happy.
smiling.
contented.
more than pleased.
glad.
joyful.
cheery.
definitely in high spirit.
blissful.
heavenly.
absolute delight.
my pleasure.........

this list will continue.

I'm loss for words to see a heart-shaped box the moment i stepped into the room.
my sweetie sp actually came up to the room before me and placed it right there on the bed.
My very first valentine's gift from him.
you caught me there honey~
you really did!
'coz I thought it was impossible even though at the same time, I was really praying and hoping to receive something from you
Such practical man like you, to do this for a little gurl.. for me...
I'm indeed touched :)

I dashed out of the office at 6pm sharp.
Rushed to Parco bugis for the photo puzzle collection.
And pen down the content for his cardie.
That cardie was with me for quite awhile already.
Finally found a right time to release it

The programme rolled away with a turkish cuisine dinner.
Food was not too bad, especially its pizza-alike dish!
And when I saw his hand was completely empty, I said to him something like why you so not romantic wan, never buy anything for me.... =p
Though was alittle disappointed at that point, I washed away those dumping mood and enjoy the food.
Took some pictures too *hee* what's new?!

Thennnnn my blur dearie didn't brought his long-sleeve shirt along for tomorrow's work, so went to OG to get one.
I choose one okay!
nicenicenicenice. ^-^
And he looks fantastic in it!
*charmingggg* =p

While he was digging his pocket for notes to pay the shirt, he put 2movie tickets into my hand.
And guess what????
Dummy me could not even differentiate an used and a new-issued ticket!
I questioned who did you watch it with worrrrrr..
Next you see a clueless look on sp's face, and there he goes saying look at the date and time!
hahahaaa..
good laugh huh~

He planned the night.
Not in my expecting bound.
Baddie me still accused him that he only plan for the dinner and back to lodge to sleep.

Thanks dearie. :)(:
Extremely thankful that you're doing all these for me.

The movie "Racing Stripes" was nice.
Though the ending was pretty predictable. =p

The night was pretty summarised till this point.

Weary sp almost slept immediately as he lays on the bed.

Love you to bits honey~
You fulfilled my wish of having a romantic 14/02/05.
More 14/02 are ahead of us.
MuAck!!

Physical pressie is not the emphasis.
Showering me with surprises is what I crave for.
Coating me with tons of your love is so heavenly desirable.

Love you.

I Love You. *3359*

san signs off. 9:27 PM
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Monday, February 14, 2005

14.02.2005

Valentine's Day :)
1st day back at WORK :(

hahaa..what a contrast huh...........

*praying for a romantic night with my dearieee*

hoping to receive flowers worrr..
but i'm very sure of not pinning ANY hope is never wrong
if not my night shall be ruined.

okay, today not too busy.
Junie and Lei's boss is away from office
can imagine how happie and slackish they could get huh!
'slightly' longer break riteeeeeeeeeeeeeeee *hee*

dear's computer still throwing hugehuge tantrums!
even after few attempts, the bad condition remains.
so gota resort to asking my dear fren ruixiang to lend a hand.
he said his friend is very good at it, so let's put our hand together and pray hard!
actually promised myself not to meddle his personal affair anymore after not getting appreciated
however how can I bear to see my dear gets frustrated night after night and still scratching his head...
*sigh*
dearie, did it all for your sake okay :)

my dear friend hoh, he is really a great friend!
helping me so much this time.
thankew soooooooooo much!
owe you this once =P repay later *heeee*

later gona get the pressie at bugis.
will sp like it?
wanna him to hang it in his room, wonder will he do so..
hMmmmmm..

update you guys again!

HARPIE VALENTINE's DAY

be it ya single or attached

be it it's your friend, your future-to-be or your partner

remember to be happie and headache-free!

Great evening ahead to all!

san signs off. 4:26 PM
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Friday, February 11, 2005

chinese new year -Day 2-

Marvellous mArrrrrrrrvellous~
Day 1 of cny ended pretty well.
the day rolled away at my popo's house *temple*
vegetarian food lunch *yuMyUmMy*
rushed home on a taxi, 'coz my father's brother suddenly said his family is coming over.
And mentioning about the lame taxi driver fumes me!
nag nag nag nag & nag about us 5ppl taking his taxi! Arghhhhh
whatever.
I know it's wrong, but he could have chose not to let us get on his taxi
However he didn't!
'coz he's not willing to part with the incoming taxi fare from US!
so pleasssssssseee don't talk about big big reasons okay~
hahaa, it's sansan complaining again *oOoops*
okay, so my daddy's brother family arrived and my daddy as usual will do all the talking.
due to historic conflicts, mummy stayed away from entertaining them.
she rather stayed in the kitchen than talking to them.
yeapsssss, pretty awkward.
buttttt anyways, it's adult affair. *youngs SHOO*

evening time, here came my ms'a cuzzin shan!
& her mummy, my yi ma
& my mummy's youngest brother and his wife
& my mummy's younger sister.
prepared vegetarian curry with some simple vegetarian dishes.
AWESOME catching'Up with my dearrrrrr shanshan~~~
*HUG*

though my day wasn't complete without sp's appearance, i managed to grade my day a decent A :)

Today.
daddy's primary schmate family visited us.
rather early, still we all have to get ready
removed our bags of lazybones from our comfort zones, waiting to welcome them ^-^
my maid whipped a few simple home dishes for them.
after that, jiehao was here!
And followed by karen~
And honey reached about 3pm.
jh is damn crappie as usual!
Even karen can't escape from his 'powderful' crapssssssssss =p
still i consider lucky to have him around, else it would be tOO quiet!

Anways, what matters most was san seeing sp *smile.smile.smile*
4days without him almost drove myself nuts.
he brought potato&egg salad, my favourite.
Anything to do with potato, I just can't resist *heee*
from the moment he was in my sight scan, i can't stop snapping shots of me and him me and him & me and him.

went to his house after that to bai nian.

then finally i spent some private moment with him
missed him
missed the way he look into my eyes
missed the way he sniff at my hand
missed his hugs his kisses his everything
and finally god took some pity on me, granting those 'missed-s' to reality.
he even remembered getting zhang xue you's cd for me~
thankies dearie honey *3359 kisses*

Went over to his cousin's new apartment.
he dropped me at my aunt's house before he went off to meet his friends.

that was roughly how things went.

Now I could be confident and say
my day is COMPLETE.
you know seconds without you, it already feels like hundred minutes.
distanting from your side became a suppressed pain of mine.

I wish for

fairytale everlasting no more fairytale

san signs off. 1:21 AM
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Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Chinese New Year eve.

Reunion dinner is of course the HIGHLIGHT

Good day for everyone rightttt.. :)
Bought a belt which im soooo in love with..
It doesn't really worth the price, my doting parents sayang me and bought it for me.
Took some photographs with my family
How nice~~~
to see everyone is smiling in the picture
to see my 2brothers who were once so tiny beside me to stand tall
we've all grown up *emotion triggered*
seeing my parents to be happie.......
my eyes tell me they are both really getting old
yet still have to worry for their children, especially me, root of countless worries.
Ong family, you roX!

NTU admission is more or less done
outstanding administrative work is meant for after cny. :)

whenever im sad
wonder why is it so
wonder why i didn't learn

time is counting down
frame is diminishing
yet improvement is so insignificant
it's just me hoping for impossibles

san signs off. 10:13 PM
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Monday, February 07, 2005

I'm office ALONE! :) *enormous chuckle*

my dear left his hp at home.
wouldn't be able to reach him though his shop's phone is available..
but not convenient for me to call still

how miserable to not msg him for one whole dae?!
missing you my deariee..

all is out for meeting
everyone except me.
my direct boss is out in Canada now, having fun with her cute nephews ^-^
can't wait for today to flyyyyy

chinese new year eve's just couple hours away..
so happieeeee..
especially not coming to work! *hurraY*
just wondering will I get to see him over these few days since we're both not working.
But don't think so bahh..
he hafta be with his family and so do I.
perhaps wait till we pay our visit at each other's house? hmmm....

Intending to go pai nian with my sptc mates.
However till now, only a pathetic few responded to my sms.
-_-
it's fun to travel around and say "xin nian kuai le" and collect angbaos!
hee..
but i think it's not gona work, 'coz too few replied YES *hmphffff*

really missing him worrrr..
yet even if i msg him he wouldn't be seeing it.
Insistent me will go ahead with msging him and flood his inbox =p
that's to ease my longing for him *smilEs*

later accompanying ying to prepare her Vday's programme..
i'm so broke, not gona spend anything today.
Haven't get my hair cut!
goshhhhh..mayb mummy's trimming my fringe
with my darn ugly fringe, how to face my relatives sia..
so uglyyyyy..
okieee..so set! mummy you trim for me heeee

my dear qiqi has begin her days of 21
And more buffets for her!
her dear's indeed overfeeding her with all those good food!
your cruissee thingg must update me huh!
soundsss so romantic and speciallll :)
Stay cute adorable sweet and young!
muAck

i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp i miss sp

san signs off. 11:33 AM
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Thursday, February 03, 2005

Down with not the slightest stress
It's dozens and trucks...

Blaming myself now for not studying hard enough
Spoke to my daddy, and he said even if I can't get into NTU it's okay
saying getting a degree is no more attractive
A diploma holder can always get what a degree grad's pay and vice versa.
That may be true for now, but who knows what's in future.
I needa lock a status for ambiguous expectation set by the complex world outside
*sigh hard*

Alittle losing hope, looking at the grades I had achieved
they are not competitive at all to beat any candidates.
And now that there's no personal interview with the school for business students to fight for the very last time, what's there I can hope for?
Those boosted financially, overseas university will be more than willing to accept you.
those brainy ones, excellent results have already back you upso why worrriee.
people like me, no money no brain, do what as you deem fit huh~

Jogged in the stadium steamed out all those toopid fan-ness
however, residue still runs
Maybe going back for another run in the evening again


Pushing my luck in the admission application.......................

san signs off. 1:48 PM
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I'm not at work.
I'm at home!

san3 applied for 2days MC :)
Feigning sick or not~
I just need rest.
Sleeping is sooo important..
when you're at home, the feel is 1001% opposite when you're working
I LOVEEeeee it~!!

Okay, the storyboard i tried to edit and have send to karen for addition information which I can't access to at home.
Abit of work for her..
"thanks gurl" ^-^
Today the bosses will discuss about storyboard thingg AGAIN, i'm gona leave it to karen's ears to absorb..
Can't be bothered~ *shrugs*

Last night, I dreamt of me & him..
our r/s was like failing away..
it was really a nightmare.
In that detached land, he was least bothered about me and whatever I'm going to say :(
anyways, i told him about it already..
And as what I can think of, he would say i'm silly *heee*
If not silly then I will not do anything and everything for you liAooooo
*muAckkkkkkkmuACkSssssss*

Yesternight, I started worrying about what's next after poly graduation.
NTU will have a place for me to squeeze in?
Oh myyy..if I were to start working, I think that's the most undesirable stage I wish to put myself in
Not avoiding, 'coz it's inevitable.
Haiiii~
What's LIFE?!
Thinking of all these, my head is in pain againnnn

Hao xiAng play tennis now...
to destress alittle..
Stress is what I'm exerting on myself
Shesssh

san signs off. 11:54 AM
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