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i need you.

Sunday, January 02, 2005

2005.

2004, how are you?
It's a dreamy year.
Things once far from reach
Became so intact with you.
Things once so close to your heart
Out of sight.

A year full of never-stable wave currents.
Allowing people to enter and leave you life has never be entertaining.
Witnessing get-togethers and separations is truly heart-twisting.
For no apparent reason, San was given a share to such experience too.

Entitling emotions with chances to get out of hand is what have been happening over this past 365 days.
Have lost touch with whether there's regret.
'coz things come and disappear too fast.
Before you could grab hold of what you are doing, you've already done it.

Read joyce's blog.
She posted a question somewhere.
"Rather stay wif someone u love or someone tt loves you?"
Something I've repeatedly asked myself.
And I could perfectly understand how this gurl feels when she is asking this herself.

As time goes by, I realise to love someone is the hardest thing ever.
It makes you so helpessly fragile and left with no choice but to be soft inside.
It makes you so prone to getting hurt and hurt and still hurt.
For now I will stick to my former choice that is to be with the one I love rather he loves me.
When you finally graspe the beneath significance of love, you were swept away by those cold shoulder at times and cruel reality words which were never meant to be revealed by him.
That's how wrenching it could be.

Things once said and heard will always remain there.
I wouldn't say things are different now or whatever.
Like joyce said, giving you assurance you need is what we are doing.
But maybe we are the ones who need it more now and not hearing you don't know.
Handling a love that's on-off is beyond my knowledge.
So shocked to hear those from you, all along I really really really thought you are certain of wanting to be with me all days ahead of us.
I was just too complacent of myself, thinking I could be the special one who could open your once-locked heart.
Too naive of me.

Quote from joycee

SP i realli hate u...i hate the way i love you so much...

Where's your smile in all our photos..

Searching for it high & low..

san signs off. 3:07 PM
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p r i n c e s s . s a n 3


life's too short to devote time dwelling over irreversible facts.

in my life, I wish upon eternal happiness with all my loved ones.

a bonus will be to see myself at the top of my career in another few years' time.

LIKES

1. Being appreciated by him.
2. Have all his love and attention.
3. Yakking nonstop with all my buds, anywhere anytime.
4. INSANE SHOPPING :)


Peaceful Exits

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