Sunday, October 31, 2004

Your Scent is Blue

Like Blue, you change and adapt frequently.

One moment you're sexy and captivating...

The next? Fun, warm, and inviting.

You're hard to predict - but that's the essence of your charm.

Power scents: Jasmine, orange flower, and lotus flower.

san signs off. 2:49 PM
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Saturday, October 30, 2004

I confessed. I'm not quite done with my cm yet. Pretty near though. Have been a commendable gurl since 1pm. Only a short breathtaking at 6plus.
Even though i'm continuing the 'under-reading process", it doesn't mean cm has become san's likes. No way. No doorZ! It remains as a thorn that's always a born irritant. OoopSss =X

Today's 'no-no' day. Unlucky one.
2 of my friends' broke up. 1guy 1gurl.
Know they can't get over with it yet. And hope they'll.. somewhere very soon..
The other 1gurl 1guy is losing someone soooo valuable. And perhaps they didn't realise.
Of course, no point crying over spilled milk. But I always have a thing in mi..
**Obey your heart.Follow heartfelt decision.Never could it be tOO wrong**
Remembered qiqi agreed with this too.. Following your heart.. Thatz simply being accountable to yourself babies! :)
Cheer up soon okayy..!! sansan compensate their love for the meantime.heez. Honoured huh? =P

Nana's blogg..she ended with the one he loves will always be the one who left him 7years ago. His former gurlfren.
Something in common.Not exactly.But.. ..you guys know what i mean right..
I'm absolutely sure I haven't overtake.Running fast enough.Committed enough.Already.
However, there's still a big big huge distance difference.
And of course his love for me is not as strong.
Will time undoubtedly fill up the empty gaphole?
Answer is.. Only god knows.

My brother one day brought up something worth a little discussion.
"sisss..don't be so sad..Whenever you're unhappy I can see it straight from your face.
Be a clown also not too bad. Ugly but entertaining. And importantly, no one knows your bottom feelings. 'coz the ugly-ness hides it too superiorly."
Really great to be a clown? A feat to do so.
Not expressing myself just means kill me. Not now to put on a smiling face to everyone at least.

Arrgghh..sprouting nonsense again. Kill me!

san signs off. 9:43 PM
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Arrgggggggggggggggggggghhhhhh
That doesn't make me feel any better after mugging those useless cm notessss!
Reading all those simply tag me as the biggest fool.
Why the hell they wanna test us on this kinda idiotic paper. I'm frustrated to the maximum!
Arrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

And I don't know why i didn't mention any of those sort to him.. Maybe 'coz i'm transparently clear that I won't receive an ease of solace from his words. How pathetic is that huh~~

I miss him like as if no one can ever stop. In his case, i'm not confident to comment a word.
It's either i'm too willing or he's too unwilling.
Neither of the above. Just casually i'm optional when comes to him perhaps. Can you believe I couldn't settle my mind at all and any moment i might just burst out crying. But who cares right. I don't even dare to think that he would bother.
Asking whether he wants me to turn up or not, he said without a second thought, you should be old enough to decide on your own..Not in exact phrase, but that's what he meant. Maybe he doesn't understand why i ask him or maybe he knows but he just simply refuse to say things that my ear will pleasantly like to hear.

Probability of me having pms now is pretty high. So i shan't add on further.
Don't wanna keep track unhappy stuff here..Will have to start my dreadful reading very soon..
Again, Life SUCKS

san signs off. 4:57 PM
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sunken-kinda feeling.. sUcky!!
Ambiguous of what things are heading to. Dragged to give a deeper thought.
Either I'm too willing or he is too unwilling.
A torn heart.

*taking a deep breath*
Shall get going with my notes.
Drained my mind, purifying away redundant residue.

san signs off. 1:19 PM
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wanna bish sansan!! she's a big slacker! Not feeling the exam anxiety is the greatest wrong this time round man!!

Snored away noonlights..
Reading through notes only till the evening. And was like flipping into a magazine liddat~~
Oh goddd.. What the toOootttttt

Miss my dearie..
Will yearn for him even more the next week when he's gone for hongkong.
Those longiness is like a love spell bounded onto me.
Irresistable and Irreversible. Controlled my every next move already.
And the funniest thing, he could actually think of "yep,i've got witches to cast the spell"
*laughs out loud*
A big muAck for you!

Going to bangkok on the 6thNov. the day right after my last paper.
But now alittle worried. It's in chaos now.
So suayyyyyyyy
Hope by then when we're going it has peaced out~~ peeps, please pray for us..
'coz I really wanna shop till i drop there! ]
Shop craze heating uppppp!

Tomorrow must study hard hard. Guess I really hafta forgo going to clement's condo.
*sighSssss*

san signs off. 1:53 AM
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Wednesday, October 27, 2004

what the tootTTtzZz am I doing here?? I should be diligently studying. Too bad, I can't resist the temptation of getting online.

Not long ago from now, I felt so damn sinful.
Subconsciously my brain sneaked into the past.
A pain stabbed hard onto me. I didn't dodge. Letting the attack become so notorious-deadly.
Ropped myself back.
Reluctant to let my mind stiff into thoughts that shouldn't be lying around.
i know myself very well. At least at this point, I do.
The force holding myself onto the past is not the reason of love. Is a clue of culpability.
An innermost self has been reprimanding me. So my nightmares are the evidence.

Get over with it san!

Ying's msn nick "jaimedays.blogspot.com.. ..disgust.. ..."
Gosh!! went to have a look how disgusting it could be.
To my real horrendous disgust, can't believe my eyes! There's actually such a girl who can write this kinda thing on a BLOG!
What a sainty creation for bloggers like usZ~ And she tainted it! Heck whether she really does what she wrote. Writing these kinda stuff reflects so badly on her personality and she sounded so psychotic!! SiaAo! Arrrghhhhhhhhhh

Honey. I love you. Wo hao ai ni.

san signs off. 6:58 PM
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Monday, October 25, 2004

Hey gurls, what kinda beauty you classify yourself to be?
Try this!


You Are a Natural Beauty!

You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about...

One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup

That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though

You have style, but for you, style is effortless

I'm here again to entertain MYSELF. How sad huh~ Surfing into nana's and quizdive webbie. Guess she's one who is still updating her blog like what i'm presently doing. Heez. Love reading her bloggie that's for sure. Ha~ Nana, flattered? kekee..

Cravesss for him. Oh yah, only till last night then I was enlightened by his words that i'm actually like a "Surprise princess" to him. haha. What i'm saying is that, he thought i was giving him a "wow!" a few days ago. That was a letdown 'coz I really meant it when I said i'm clearing my toopid doubts in woodlands library. Nevertheless, hearing him out cheers and warmed my heart. He's expecting for me though he was working. Ermm, am i making any logic here? okokiee..Let's shrug that off.

Bottomline: I was happie!

Tomorrow. The first paper - Financial Management. heez, wishing myself luck! At least a B though i'm asking for an A in fact. I will not disappoint myself rite.. Let's hope so. Going for the last charge up now!

san signs off. 6:01 PM
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*catch a breath 1st*

These days were not pleasant at all. In the sense that I'm focusing on revision.
Studied at his place on the just-past saturday. Studied for the entire afternoon. Surprisingly I could actually find his bedroom a conducive revising place! He laid on his bed and rest while I mugged those tutorial questions.

The day before, also a just-past friday, was our 90days together.
Met up. And went to catch a midnight show - the exorcist. Gosh!! How can I suggest to watch that in the middle of all darkness!! *glurping saliva down my throat* His palm was what I see most of the times and peeping through those holes in between his fingers. Must have looked damn silly.
I'm a scardy cat okay! I was so amazed by his unchanged facial expression. He didn't looked a bit scared. So not only his tone is monotonous, as well for his reactions. Haha. Complimenting him? of course not! suan-ing honey~
Gave him that bottle of folded staries and hearties. Never did this for anyone before. Used to love folding it when I was primary6 I remembered. He seems to be loving it. *smiling*

RitzCarlton Green House was our dinner venue for saturday. Seafood buffet. With a $120 voucher. A feast. Fresh salmon. Sumptuous lobster meat. Prawns tasted so refreshing once you bite them. Hmm. Some sushi-s we had. Main dishes. Cod fish. Sea cucumber etc. Hmm.. Salad. Didn't see any lobster salad though. Have been craving for that since decades ago. A few dim sum. Dessert.
Photographs are of course taken. The setting for our seats was very japanese-tuned.

A tennis racketS exhibition at suntec. Quite a mini one. N-code rackets were hanged up everywhere there. To me, that's nothing impressive or very appealing. Haha, I just don't know how to appreciate rackets. Pardon me. Saw some sports tops and a tennis skirt that I like. Fond hugs' dress also my targeted shopping item. Tube dress. Their clothings are so my style. Love it.

Shouldn't be here blogging. Shouldn't be online in the first place. But still I did.
Tired of reading and understanding those notes. And memorise them somemore. Hate it.
So retrieving time-out here.

san signs off. 2:32 AM
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Sunday, October 24, 2004

I just love doing quizzessss.. Pardon me~ heez



Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way

You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to

Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets

No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

san signs off. 11:51 AM
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Friday, October 22, 2004

lonely Spirit-ing in my detached realworld. As if I was falling apart. Rifting down a mountain range with sucha crying heartie. And someone in the mid of this timespace seems to have caught me from that aimless drift.
It's him.
His "I really love you" rang my senses.
Snatched my soul back onto my bed, hearing his voice across the greatest communication invention, telephone.

Speechlessly emerged into his words.

He said..
There is a gurl character in a show. She is willing to do everything and anything in the relationship. Same goes for the guy. That's what called love.
And he felt that was too dreamy.
And I felt the gurl is a duplicate of a dreamy me. Hopelessly silly.

Continued conversation of ours makes me went thinking..
He loves me because of what I've done for him?
My actions made him fall in love?
Not myself, who has moved his feeling?
jUst suspecting, if I were not to do anything, does it mean he wouldn't have love me this much?
I've lotsa things to ask.
But now, his love confession made me went dumbfounded.

Perhaps I'm still having second thoughts about a thing in my head. Causing the problematic me.
Perhaps I should be less complicating and more simple.

"good night, silly yet problematic ger..."
Good night honey soonPeow dearieee..

san signs off. 1:40 AM
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Thursday, October 21, 2004

Your Brain Usage Profile:
Auditory : 29% Visual : 70% Left : 61% Right : 38%

sandra, you are somewhat left-hemisphere dominant and show a preference for visual learning, although not extreme in either characteristic. You probably tend to do most things in moderation, but not always.

Your left-hemisphere dominance implies that your learning style is organized and structured, detail oriented and logical. Your visual preference, though, has you seeking stimulation and multiple data. Such an outlook can overwhelm structure and logic and create an almost continuous state of uncertainty and agitation. You may well suffer a feeling of continually trying to "catch up" with yourself.

Your tendency to be organized and logical and attend to details is reasonably well-established which should afford you success regardless of your chosen field of endeavor. You can "size up" situations and take in information rapidly. However, you must then subject that data to being classified and organized which causes you to "lose touch" with the immediacy of the problem.
Your logical and methodical nature hamper you in this regard though in the long run it may work to your advantage since you "learn from experience" and can go through the process more rapidly on subsequent occasions.

You remain predominantly functional in your orientation and practical. Abstraction and theory are secondary to application. In keeping with this, you focus on details until they manifest themselves in a unique pattern and only then work with the "larger whole."
With regards to your career choices, you have a mentality that would be good as a scientist, coach, athlete, design consultant, or an engineering technician. You can "see where you want to go" and even be able to "tell yourself," but find that you are "fighting yourself" at the darndest times

san signs off. 11:51 AM
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Battling with all those die-hard health foes for quite a long while. Still to no avail. Still sneezing away coughing away.. Damn!

Today gotta start with FM revision. The most worrisome module for my case. Vague idea of the last few chapters, which are also turn out to be important exam topics. Scariest, i've no motivation to study. Not in exam mood at all. For the first time since PSLE.

Don't wanna be a strain to you.. ..

san signs off. 10:33 AM
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Sunday, October 17, 2004

Honey! I'm sweet-syrupy indulged~ too hilerated~!! muAckSssSsssss

Walking around with you, anywhere everywhere, it's just nice.
Blessed with a wonderful night after mugging MFM notes in the day. Love you..
Floating in a heavenly paradise that's up all because there's a YOU.

Ohhhh..I'm have not dry myself from your overfilling love mixture. Still swimming in it, feeling sooooo much blissed.

Just miss you.
Longing for you.

san signs off. 1:38 PM
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Saturday, October 16, 2004

Almoooost escaped from those sickly clutches. Left a tiny tweeny bit before I'm labelled 'virus-free'. Heez.

CM presentation was sucky.

I'm sooo satisfied with last night's everything. He brought me to Mount Faber. Keke. The sweet storyline begins when I realised his collegue cum friend was actually guiding the way infront of his car all along. Didn't quite get it initially when he phoned his friend to ask "has your car heated up?". So yep, he nicely planned to go up there and got his friend to lead the way (thinking I might not even notice) keke.. The bird-eye view at the peak was fantastically beautiful. Perhaps those rays of lightings from faraway high-rise buildings contributed to the wholesome effect. I lurveeeee it. Surrounded with his hugs and kisses. Perfect surrounding with the definite right man, everything mixed just well. I was drowning into his love-dipped eyes and his warmth wrapped all over me. Drank Cinderalla, that's for me, Lintena and that's for him. Accompanied with nachos, his favourite. Oh it was at the alastica lounge. Did I remember correctly? Oooopps =X I'm totally unsure of that, please correct me if I'm wrong then =P

Down the road. We walk side by side.
10 years or 20 years or more. Love you just like yesterday.

MFM reading up time! People, next time! =)

san signs off. 2:37 PM
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Thursday, October 14, 2004

Still not well-armoured against all the bateria around me. Immune system weakened. After frictioning it with loads and tons of late nights, it finally broke down. After all, I'm only a human. With no supernatural interiority to push my way through these weary days and nights. I'm young, nevertheless there is a boundary to it.

Heez. Apologies to those who have got infected by my contagious virus. you guys know who I'm referring to. =p

Projects. No more virtual fullstops coming from my heart. No jokes. They've reached their conclusive stages. *PhewphEwPhew* Focus focus. On exams for these 2weeks or so.

Honeyhoney's tired today. Falling asleep pretty early. Chatted not long on the phone. Missed him alot. And there'll be more days ahead without seeing him. Both of us just gotta bear with it. Last semester, don't wish to screw it. ") Working hasn't been easy for him. Pressurising to hear shooting bullets and arrows from him her her him. But dearie, you really hafta get used to it. Everywhere is monotonously upsetting. Cheer up yeah. muAck!

Time to time instinct tells me freaky things. Things that I don't wish it'll happen now or even next time. However, thoughts haunt me. As if they are hunting me down for a motive.

terribly yearning for you.. ... ......
........

san signs off. 11:04 PM
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Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Monday,Tuesday and today. No good days for me at all!
Totally screwed. My health i mean..What am I suffering? Gosh.. you won't want to know. Fever Flu Sorethroat Coughing Runny nose. Really kneeling down on my knees, begging to ward away all these virus from san! Beg you!

Wine appreciation class today was pretty a highlight of the day. Only thing that I was at least diverted away from my sick-lethargy. Learnt quite alot of things. Drank quite abit of wineS. Beautiful names they have. Sound much more class-ier than moi name! keke.. =x

okokiee..Enough of all those updates. The main thing bringing me up here is to say thank you my dear.To come down and visit me with foodie though I'm in no state to eat. Your presence drew a vast difference before and after you came. Smiled~ Right from the bottom of my sicky heartie. Didn't expect you to do so and you did. That made it much more special. LoveYou!

Wanna get well very soon. Gotta piaaaa for the exams! Though the sad part is i'm still left with one more projecttttttt..

san signs off. 11:34 PM
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Sunday, October 10, 2004

What's to achieve in life so to live with no regrets?
Being apologetic towards what you've not attain is the last thing you should even think of. Right now, I seems to have quite a few considerations.
Results. ITP. Pursue for degree in NTU/NUS or society? Higher grade for tennis. Wanna get it right for all of them. But abit lost here. The compass needle is spinning round and round, I'm waiting for it to stop and heed the destined direction. Biggest headache of all, going to work or further studies for degree. Work 'coz wanna share the family burden with my parents. However, part of my heart wants to continue my voyage as a student for alittle longer. And also, for a better life, I know I've to work harder to assure it. *lostlost*

Unfeeling. Numb. Senseless.
Too many things are going on. Too fast for me to even absorb it, not mentioning to digest. Can I request for a "CUT!"? reluctant to even look at the next "Take". I'm very worn out already. Not yet start to revise, and here I am flagging the white cloth in my hand. LoUsy! An ending of, let's say, a project just means a gunstart of another. Many more are stopping ahead, waiting for our acceptance. As I grow, I hate the word growing. Waking up everyday in the morning, having lotsa comtemplations congesting my brain. Thinking what I've to do later~~~~ Non-stop of such thoughts are pushing my limits to the wall.

Hardly recognise what's enjoyment. Trying to familiarise with fun again. All of them became strangers. Getting back to back with work pressure. How interesting is that huh~~~

I wanna sing at the top of my voice!!! I wanna travel out of Singapore!!!
I wanna have some foreign fresh air. I need it badly.

san signs off. 1:52 PM
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Saturday, October 09, 2004

Let's sum up for these few weeks. Within everyone's call, it's still as busy as ever.

Unscheduled tennis play this morning. Scheduled movie - Wimbledon this noon. Semi-planned dinner this late evening. It's like another couple fiesta for SPTC. All in all, 6 couples turned up though not all at one go. SPTC should renamed it as the SP matchmaking club, makes more sense huh? Quoting this from sp.. hahaa.. Oh yah!! forget to bring up the heroic act of alvin at FIsh&Co. this evening. there was this group of sec4/5 bunch of gurls occupying a very long table that's right in the middle of the 2nd floorth of Fish&Co. Of course, it goes without saying they are the centre of attraction with all their noises and flashes coming from their dig. cam. This is not the worse part. For no apparent reason, there was a power failure. AND these gurls made full use of the darkness to celebrate their fren's birthday. It's alright if they did not use fireworks!! HELLLooooo, you're in an air-conditioned restaurant for goodness sake! Smokiness made my head went spinning..So uncomfortable. Gosh!! haha, and guess what? Alvin spoke up to the manager (i suppose that guy's the in-charge) Don't let your eyes to be drugged by his small boiboi image. He was firm. He was direct. He was surprisingly FORCEful! hahaa.. Thumbs up. You should stand up for your rights. Though not always. And not over small matters obviously. Keke..

He left earlier tonight for tuitioning. So I went home on my own on the train. When he's gone, whole load of distraction came over me. Became restless to even finish my food. He didn't eat at Fish&Co. He never catch the moment of glory belonging to Alvin. oOooopPpssSs =X keke..

There are certain things which do bother me.. Still it is at this moment. My parents said when ya in love, you are suppose to feel happy and nothing else. Seeing me troubled at times, they would say then why be in love? No answer to that. 'coz things are not always in favour? Or just mere uncompatibility?

I wanna give in. 'coz don't wish seeing things to turn sour.
Scare to give in. 'coz don't wish you to take things for granted.
Contradicting. Dilemma spot.
Give or take?
Take or give?
Give and take. It has been a remarkable feat since .. ..

san signs off. 11:26 PM
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Thursday, October 07, 2004

Updates from the Novice games final. 1win1lose. Won the women's doubles. Lost to LeeHua for the Women's Singles. Her topspin serve is pretty gooodd.. 1st set was lousy, 6-1. 2nd set, I gained a tiny munch of confidence got 6-4. From 4-0 to 4-4 den 6-4. The reason for striving even when I'm already drained out, it's my honey love power. Though I didn't win, but I've fought hard against my body-lethargy. Hmm~ A nice game I would say, one new match exposure I had. The only thing that I was sad - made my dearie disappointed. Sorrie, will brush up my serve.. Err, when I've the time okay =p

Daphne should have a great game time yesterday huh~~3Cheers for our doubles!! =)
So swweeeet of Mony to keep buying drinks for me while I was playing. LurveYa sweetie gurl~ And that JieHao also..HE's great. Stayed on though not for my sake (dUhhh~~) but gave some moral support which did help dude. Thanks fren! And joyceeee, after more matches you won't be so tensed up the next time. *smilEs joyceeee* We're behind you!

Met him after his work at JurongEast 'coz I took the train already when we decided to meet AgaiN. Why I mention the word 'AgaiN'? Upsetting moment for one second, and the next we were alrightY ") In his car when we were discussing alittle about my match, he gave me a peck on my cheek which really swept away all my tiredness and was energised! Heez.

Now I'm blogging, 'coz I left house 1hour earlier. Class starts at 10am, should be leaving at 915 but i left at 815. Time conceptuality is bad today. GOsh~! So here I am, blogging in the BizIt library. Very tired today, hesitating to skip MFM 3hours class. Should I? *pondering*

Missing him terribly. NOt again right.. But yesh, it's again. Wanna see him so much, squirming into you. Next 2days, white chicks and wimbledon. Movie daYs!! Hopefully, saturday he'll spend it with me, with us.. ..
Just a wish.

san signs off. 9:23 AM
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Tuesday, October 05, 2004

Hey everybody!Now it's 12:45pm and sansan is at home already. Seriously I'm very glad to have a chance to coop myself in my homesweethome. :) Body and Brain of mine needs intense recuperation for at least 3hours? I mean at least.. Grant my wish god~

Okay you guys will be wondering why am I home at such an hour. It's my GBE presentation day supposingly. And Andrew Gray, my tutor 'responsibly' had a notice on the door, saying he's on medical leave or whatever so. So it means being in school at 09:00am for this class became a waste of time! Goshgoshgosh. Went to foodcourt6, discuss alittle about THL presenatation on thursday, had a bowl of soupie prawn noodles and.. .. Junie and I strongly agreed on returning back home instead of staying on for the last class for the day - FM tutorial. Haha. And there we went.... home. Lei and Qi, of course went along with us. Heez. Sorry Wong Y.Y., we just can't keep our butts on the chairs throughout your tutorial after eating~~ Drowsiness sprinkled over me after filling my stomach. Oh yah!! It was our first time eating the prawn mee of FC6 after 2 1/2 years in business block~!! kekee.. It was good. Lurve the soooouuuuppp..

Sp's now accompanying his grandaddy for a medical checkup. Later of the day will tuition all the way for him. 4 tuitions in total. take care dearie. It's a dreadful thing to work even on your off-day. Anyways, JiaYou honey!

Can't wait for next week's KTV session though it'll be only me and Junnie. Let's conquer the mikes baby! Heez.

Sleeping time~Nappppppp

san signs off. 1:44 PM
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Sunday, October 03, 2004

Cheerios! San's 3 assignments of the day had ended with a big fullstop. *grinning wide* Now busy editing my blog layout and colours. Heez. What an enjoyment to do all these rather than tormenting my head with all those unfeeling reports. -_- keke.. Luckily pretty much done. Too happy to express it in words. Have to do up the GBE speech later after dinner. Let sansan slack a LITTLE more huhhhhh..~~ heez.

This afternoon. Pleasantly spending it with my 2brothers. Talk here and there. Anything under the sun. *smilEs* Listening to music that we like.Chatting along. *smiling away..* The welcoming interval of sp's calls throughout our conversation chirped me bit by bit each time my hp went ringing. Nothing beats hearing his voice and knowing that he's thinking of me. He conquers my heart to its fullest.

Just print out the GBE report. 15pages. Oooo..never print the 31pages for our appendix and another 2 pages for reference, all under bibliography. Gonna do it in school. Waste my ink and papers. ") Think we did quite well for GBE, 'coz all the information seems substantial enough. Hopefully our dreams won't clash. Let's just pray hard.

KTV session in week5!! Yeah! Marvellous idea. Distress before start the mugging notes war again. But one saddening decision was made, jun&I are not going to Thailand this holiday. Hesitating whether to go jb or kl for like 1-2days. On shopping spree mood of course. keke.. Gonna tell that dearie later. Muacks~ mIss him lots!

san signs off. 5:11 PM
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Im losing myself. So what if I've won the whole world, but lost to the biggest villian in this universe, the Great Stress. Life is now only about doing projects. Is that still consider a Life?? Gosh, don't tell me it's a Yes. I want everything to be over soon. To the minimal, let this sandra have a break before packing for the next phase of her journey.

Frankly.I'm too tired to put myself in any other commitments. I just wanna let my mind set free. Set Free. Set Free. I wanna forget about everything in school. Forget what I'm supposed to accomplish. Brainwash myself. Simply.

Today won both singles and doubles. Bad start of the day. Sp&I waited for mony for like 25mins in the car when she didn't even realise. Keke. BLurrish Mon!! =P More than glad to see him around to support me, though nothing was mentioned by him. Could sense his presence and support. That kept me striving.

Late in the night had an urge to get rid of the naughty look of my blog with black-belted strawberries. Pretty in love with this bloggie skin.

san signs off. 1:12 AM
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Saturday, October 02, 2004

feeling up&down now. -bad omen- something unpredictably bad is gonna happen to me soon?

Yesternight till now, I haven't recover from the shock. Is he gonna give up?Or should I put it like that, he'll be the one letting go?

I'm so scared now.. .. ..

san signs off. 7:38 AM
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