My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with

i need you.

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

What I've been on my mind since we've started finally is here. She's back into the picture. The troubled face of his rippled my emotions' waves up and down. Fragile-ness of my heart surfaced. It sobbed~ He didn't manage to discover that. 'coz he is too confused to even sense something's wrong. Perhaps it was after some while before he did. I can't faced him at that moment. When we were in the lift, I forced a bitter smile to appear on my artificial facial expression. Why? 'coz in any second, I might let those buckets of suppressed tears to leak. Which is rather indesirable. I don't wish my tears to be seen by him when he is already in a dilemma. I ran home. Trying my very best to escape.

My apologies to abandon you at the lift when you're mentally lost. I can't help it. If I could. And it's only IF I could. What you need is not my support. Don't want my support to become a distraction tool. All you need is time to yourself. Getting transparently clear who and what you really needs wants and loves. Maybe in the end, the story's leading actress isn't me. But at least I got a part once before. *smilEs* This smile seems fake huh~ I'm upset but nothing much is up to me from what I can see.

No calls from him. Neither sms-es. Maybe he is messenging someone but the person is not me. Anyways, like I've once said. As long as he is happy, that's all it matters. Be as crappie as you are now. Even if I'm not the one who is creating your happiness, I'll pray for yours. Worst scenario is only we became friends again. It's not a too bad ending. At least we are still in good contact manner. So no worries for me at all.

Don't be with someone you can live without.
Be with someone you can't.

san signs off. 1:10 AM
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p r i n c e s s . s a n 3

life's too short to devote time dwelling over irreversible facts.

in my life, I wish upon eternal happiness with all my loved ones.

a bonus will be to see myself at the top of my career in another few years' time.

LIKES

1. Being appreciated by him.
2. Have all his love and attention.
3. Yakking nonstop with all my buds, anywhere anytime.
4. INSANE SHOPPING :)

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