My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with

i need you.

Sunday, September 05, 2004

Stone-ing. Infront of a dead-living thing - my PC. Fingers on the keyboard. Lotsa deep thoughts bottled somewhere in San. Overloading. Wanna get those feelings down in words. Pretty tough, 'coz.. .. only my heart knows it the best. These veiled sensations are filling up to the brim of San soon. And soon, it will overflow. Consequence from then on? I've totally no idea. Sometimes, very much I want to present the most chirpy side of mine to everyone around me. But sometimes, I do fail terribly. And the saddest part, from time to time, he only know that he wants me to be cheerful at all times; but now and again, he is not aware that he's the culprit for me suddenly got sulken.

It's me not being meticulous enough. Letting my expectation ruining the day's or night's mood. Need him to be alittle encouraging. I'm not sure how challenging that could be when he looks at it. Everyone else can throw eggs at me. Can even ballow if they see the need to. I won't cry. 'coz they don't deserve my tears. Not a single bit for goodness sake. But it's you. My sweetheartie. One simple phrase out of your mouth. Unintentional. Or whatever frankness you call it. Still my heart aches. -sigh- Teach me. How am I suppose to be vivacious like before when someone so close to my soul is destroying my last effervesence residue that's used to be in me always.

Later of the day there will be a mixed doubles match for me&sp. Please~ Don't let it be another utter disappointment. I don't seem can take any blow at this moment. On this day.

For a long time since I really cry. Though no one would enjoy such a time where you really get to feel what's grievance. But when you realise you forget how it feels. Forget what's crying. Only in the last few pages of your life from now, you got your nose blocked, getting hiccups like nobody's business, trying hard to catch some breaths and your whole body's buring inside out. Such instant is a pleasure in life too. To the least, these unhappiness never have an unsuccesful attempt in emphasizing the beautiful snapshots that had happened to us.

san signs off. 1:09 PM
_________________________________________________________

p r i n c e s s . s a n 3

life's too short to devote time dwelling over irreversible facts.

in my life, I wish upon eternal happiness with all my loved ones.

a bonus will be to see myself at the top of my career in another few years' time.

LIKES

1. Being appreciated by him.
2. Have all his love and attention.
3. Yakking nonstop with all my buds, anywhere anytime.
4. INSANE SHOPPING :)

Peaceful Exits

.ling. .daphne. .monica. .yuying. .shinleei. .anna. .benny. .joyce. .venassa. .amanda. .ruixiang. .givany. .jialin. .weijun. .elaine. .joycee. .jasline. .bro. .ying.

.photos.

The Past

June 2004
July 2004
August 2004
September 2004
October 2004
November 2004
December 2004
January 2005
February 2005
March 2005
April 2005
May 2005
June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
June 2009

CHITCHATTY

To view photos