My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with

i need you.

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

San is losing herself. Very much she is keen in keeping a sweetie pie smile. She can't. Very much she wishes I could behave as per normal when I see him just now at foodcourt5. She is thinking too much her friends said. Thrash things out is what I'm supposed to do. But something is holding her back.

On a shopping spree a gurl will be. Especially when she is down and trying to occupy all her time space. That'll make her stop making wild guesses. Yep, pretty effective. Qi&San went town. Woo~ Bought a few stuff. A bikini top, another top and a pair of uniquely beautiful earrings for San. Qi got her a kaki colour mini skirtie~ Her that skirt almost equals to my 3 items' values. Haha. Anyways, she looks good in it. :)

While I was at orchard, thought of going down to Queensway to look for him. However, kept having 2nd thoughts. Thinking it isn't quite a good idea to see him when he indicated he needs time to cool off. Still, write him a small note cardie. Ferrero Rocheo. Aloe Vera drink with huge aloe veras in it. That was meant to be a pure surprise. Coincidentally, he also wanted me to go down and so he msged me. Everything turns out to be not quite like a surprise after all. His facial expression didn't reveal much appreciation and smile. Waited for him. But the night somehow felt different. Is San just thinking toooo much? Or Is San not facing the truth? The feeling is weird. Even now, I feel what a strange feeling. Like our relationship has went back to its starting point. Like our passion has been rescheduled to zero. Like everything has changed underneath. He isn't really happy, San knows it. San knew it. San can't smile naturally when she is with him for now. Till the ugly feeling fades away, things are gonna be as stagnant as present.

If love was created for a purpose.
Is the purpose you?

san signs off. 1:48 PM
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p r i n c e s s . s a n 3

life's too short to devote time dwelling over irreversible facts.

in my life, I wish upon eternal happiness with all my loved ones.

a bonus will be to see myself at the top of my career in another few years' time.

LIKES

1. Being appreciated by him.
2. Have all his love and attention.
3. Yakking nonstop with all my buds, anywhere anytime.
4. INSANE SHOPPING :)

Peaceful Exits

.ling. .daphne. .monica. .yuying. .shinleei. .anna. .benny. .joyce. .venassa. .amanda. .ruixiang. .givany. .jialin. .weijun. .elaine. .joycee. .jasline. .bro. .ying.

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