My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with

i need you.

Thursday, June 10, 2004

Not a fantastic day. Remembered yesterday i mentioned about this French guest? Yup, this is the most disheartening part of the day. He left early in the morning 0615h. I am at fault come to think about it. I didn't clarify the departure time. Never have the chance to take photo with him either. Disappointing.

Listening to MLTR's Take Me To Your Heart right now.. A gush of saddening emotions ran over me. Don't wish to bring the matter up. Disputes over the same old issue. We are not meant to be? It may be so. If he is the one, why am i hurt every now and then? Thousand and one question marks. When my ears absorbed, "why should i ... when you are not my laopo yet?", instant mood change. He has nothing wrong in saying that. I'm only his gf. He can always make a switch if he wants to. My heart is crying. Because i thought he has treated me as his wife all the while. Dazing into the music. Numb.

I am scared of making a wrong choice in life. Seemingly minor mistake may end up to a grave consequence in life. So have i make a wrong turn? Sighs.. Strengthless to consider that. Decisions. I hate it. No need reason to justify it. I just detest the hesitation. Do you? That's me. Always got held back in the process. Right and Wrong. A line apart, yet it does a difference.

Got pisssed at work today. What a day hUh~ Shitty one..!! Ying bought a hello panda chocolate flavoured one and donuts for me. And guess what?? Someone/SomeoneS ate the hello panda. Pathetic one piece was left!! I bought cinnamon pastries. Wanted to gave it to YongCheng. THEN. The someone ate 2 mouth of each pastry and leave it in the box which was disfigured. Only till then, my bell captain alerted me. We gotta put our names on the foodie. Gosh~ Can you believe it. Sucky day.

Dreadful days. No consolation from him. I beg you, if it is the end mark a clear fullstop there. Just there. Sighs again.

san signs off. 12:06 AM
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p r i n c e s s . s a n 3

life's too short to devote time dwelling over irreversible facts.

in my life, I wish upon eternal happiness with all my loved ones.

a bonus will be to see myself at the top of my career in another few years' time.

LIKES

1. Being appreciated by him.
2. Have all his love and attention.
3. Yakking nonstop with all my buds, anywhere anytime.
4. INSANE SHOPPING :)

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