hEart.lEads.thE.wAe

2009-06-09T20:50:00.001+08:00

there are so many photos that are not uploaded yet! especially our china trip..i guess he has forgotten about developing the photos already.

there are so many things that i should have updated but now to recall, i've forgotten what i should blog here..

been really busy juggling between my work and his shop. other than being too exhausted, i am happy :)

in a way, life became more fulfilling and not like leading a mundane life which he used to quote. everyday is a brand new day.

just hope my parents will not be too worried over me..and i hope that he will never give up no matter how tough the road ahead seems to be.

2009-03-08T16:46:00.004+08:00

very happyyy nowadays :D

i've a very sweet pressie from anna and levan.

then my dad got me a new phone!

and..

me and peow got ourselves a new commitment.

we have got a home that belongs to only us..

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though i'm pretty happy these days, i realise i prefer to stay home these days too.
i treasure times at home especially when both my parents are home!

and finally we've set a date to take a family photo at studio with me wearing the graduation robe :) peowpeow will be there too. great!

still planning for our korea trip. quite frustrated as we've a hard time fixing on a date. but still looking forward. hees

2009-02-22T10:38:00.001+08:00

2009-02-22T10:29:00.003+08:00

january 2009 has past.
cny has past.
valentine's has past as well.

happy belated birthday to myself ;D

my birthday has past too.

felt really happy yesterday, other than the fact i'm no longer 23.
but people, remember i'm always 21!

my brother remembered and greeted me "happy '21st' birthday sis!" :)

first birthday card from anna and levan (aka le fan).
very touching content, i almost teared after reading levan's part..
according to them, my presie is on the way..haha

2nd birthday presie was from my cisco security guard.
a bracelet. he is really not just any cisco, he is very nice to everyone of us in branch.

3rd bouquet of roses from so called secret admirer (aka peow)
he sent it to my branch in the morning.
i couldn't stop smiling..

4th a mini birthday celebration at anan's hubby's restaurant
they got me a birthday cake and sang birthday song..

5th peow drove me to Laborador Beach resort
i entered the room and he had already placed my birthday presie on the bed

6th a heartie-box
inside there were 1) a pair of beautiful earrings 2) heart-to-heart necklace 3) chain of hearts bracelet

7th a reservation at the seafood restaurant with food all ordered
i told him i wanted to eat crab sometime ago..

8th he bought a tiny birthday pudding cake and left it aat the restaurant
he lit the candle and i blew it with a wish in my mind..

he said everything was quite well-planned because it went so smoothly..

9th my brother (ah boy) bought me a burberry perfume.
he bought it quite long ago, thats very sweet of him.

last but not least, thank you all for your birthday wishes! :) love you all!

2009-01-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

a trip down to chinatown! :) to have a good feel on cny!

2009-01-11T21:15:00.001+08:00

mummy's birthday! :)

peow got her a delicious birthday cake, yummy!

2009-01-04T20:16:00.002+08:00

in 2009, many said it's not going to be a good year for ox. but i still pray for the better.

2009-01-04T20:14:00.001+08:00

ling's hair has revived! :) shirley mah at jurong west!

first pic: After
2nd pic: Before

2009-01-04T20:10:00.002+08:00

our lunch at rochester ;)

2008-12-28T16:56:00.003+08:00

27th December 2008. our night at blooie's house.

our day started with games and ended with games too. now i'm in love with bridge again!

2008-12-28T16:47:00.003+08:00

our camera cant leave our hands!

we had some fun games at mind's cafe :)

off to meet osk!

2008-12-26T19:31:00.003+08:00

since i'm still early, i should .... hees

xmas hotel stay at Rendezvous.

2008-12-26T19:21:00.005+08:00

small little surprise for him.

family xmas dinner :)

2008-12-26T19:19:00.000+08:00

all ready for a mexican feast!

2008-12-26T19:15:00.001+08:00

hand-baked xmas gifts for me... :) thanks junie, levan & anna!

2008-12-26T19:01:00.002+08:00

bukit batok branch xmas gift xchg

2008-12-26T18:57:00.001+08:00

night out with my gurls & our classic photos

2008-12-26T18:50:00.003+08:00

2008-12-19T21:01:00.002+08:00

from gi's blog:

"Love is embracing differences and discovering ways in which to build a common lifestyle, share decision-making, and take equal responsibility for the results."

many will argue that they know alot about love. many will think that they have grasp the true meaning of it. but how many have neglected about embracing differences together?

yes it takes a lifetime to know love.

i remembered once i received a card and the card has chinese words written something like "...this lifetime i will be the one who understand you the best.."

a good news to share: my corporate ranking is up! :) with tiny bit of pay increment :) it kinda motivates in such a bad market.

2008-12-18T18:20:00.002+08:00

no one will know how i am feeling now.

i look pretty okay on the outside. but who will ever know the thoughts inside me..

when things slowly settle down, i tend to realise everything is void and those feelings involved were so deceiving that now i questioned how true they were. if true, why so breakable.. so it can't be very true.

must always remember, words remain deep down as just words. they are nothing more than empty promises when you finally see light to what is happening.

should i be happy that it happened when i'm only turning 24 or should i be grieving as i'm already turning 24?
i don't know.

but definitely, it shows we are nothing more than strangers even after us spending so long together. just a snap, yeap, it disappears. so now tell me, what i have believed in will never happen as it only belongs to the fictional world that i see in serial show.

just want to put it down in this blog so when i read back one day in a happier mode, i will know these have truly happened.

2008-12-18T18:15:00.002+08:00

we were all ready to our west cluster xmas party at shin8. :)

2008-12-18T18:14:00.000+08:00

i like this!

2008-12-18T18:12:00.002+08:00

long while since we met~ :)
really nice of her to accompany me around to get those xmas gifts..

2008-12-18T18:10:00.001+08:00

2008-11-23T19:40:00.002+08:00

it is 22nd of the month again..

22/11/2008.

our number 52 month together and i believe still counting...

we went suntec city and there is this cosplay exhibition. we saw this Caricature art and we got ourselves drawn.

TOTALLY BU XIANG! still fun la hor~

2008-11-23T19:36:00.001+08:00

Xmas is near the corner! :)

Me and annabelle signed up for cardio kickboxing 10-lesson course at OCBC recreation club for just $60! :) we look sporty hor haha

2008-11-23T19:19:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNA-BELL-A!

this lady here should be the nicest girl at work who always help me and guide me (because she knows i'm very forgetful).

me & levan (the next nicest girlfriend at work) at annabelle's husband's family's peranakan restaurant celebrating her birthday. =)

this silly girl cried once they saw us. haha~~

the story goes like this...
me & levan decided to give her a birthday surprise. we were in luck to get her husband's in cahoots! we got all ready at the restaurant and her boy called her to come here and help and 'lied' that there are many customers. while waiting for her to reach, me & levan waited impatiently at the toilet area to prevent anna to see us. the small little logcake was on my hand and levan was waiting to lit up the candle once anna reaches the cashier counter area.
FINALLY after dont know how long (it feels very long!) she was here!
we sang happy birthday song while we walked out.
she turned and looked super stunned.
then tears started rolling down her cheeks.

anyways, we hope that this is one of her memorable birthday that she will remember!

2008-11-23T18:56:00.006+08:00

A wedding at such a young age, is it a blessing or ....?

i guess the answer lies in their future. I truly hope it will be a happily ever after story. They still have a long path ahead, may their lives be a blessed one.

And the question comes.. "when is your turn?"

I choose to smile and not answer. Like what you say, the proposal moment should be impromptu..

Marriage, this word starts to scare me a little. It is a lifetime promise and commitment. By right, it should be a promise to a lifetime happiness. By left, I've seen many sad stories that are so far-fetched from the above definition (ever since i work).

Please define the marriage the way fairy tale always goes..the king and princess lives happily ever after....

"Hold my hands. Hold them like you never want to let them go.."

2008-11-12T18:11:00.001+08:00

Ling & san Double date dinner :)

2008-11-12T17:52:00.007+08:00

Anna's ROM party at One Rochester.

we are preparing to go....

2008-11-12T17:09:00.010+08:00

Hen's night for anna! :D

2008-11-12T17:05:00.004+08:00

ever since i work, this is the first time we get sometime out of singapore. we are on cruise :)

2008-10-19T20:26:00.018+08:00

been quite awhile since i'm out for some drinks at lunar. with old boss and colleagues. i was actually having a band on my head, but but but levan said it looks weird. so i removed it and back to my old normal look.

as what i promise my dear, i didn't drink much. was sober all the way i got home. :)

2008-10-19T20:19:00.002+08:00

Quarterly update in Mongolian costumes for our west cluster.

Hari raya visit to my Malay colleague's house. great home-cooked food!

2008-10-19T19:38:00.011+08:00

my first D&D with oc :)

theme: back to old school days!

2008-09-14T16:52:00.002+08:00

my new hair colour starts from..

2008-09-14T16:43:00.004+08:00

latest update:

SAN HAS DYED HER HAIR DARK DARK DARK BROWN. apparently, it appears to be black right after the dye. my hair feels much healthier now. it has been over five years since i dyed notsobright colour. :)

and i broke my longest sleep record on thursday. i was so tired that i reached home by 7pm and slept at 730pm all the way till 630am the next morning. the sleep was fantastically fresh and good. no dream nothing.

quarrels became so common between me and him. so often that i'm getting alittle scared. but when everything turns well, i reassured myself. anyways we watched MAMAMIA last night. good good good. :D love it love it.

2008-08-31T20:08:00.005+08:00

post-graduation day.

after my work, i went to his house while i waited for him to get ready. we intend to go town to get to mooncakes! :D he got four seasons's durian mooncakes for my family. :))

before that we had our heavyheavy late lunch at the organic experience cafe beside California fitness. yummmy~ and we tend to over-order.....esp the mixed platter! i love the asparagus soup with their organic toasted bread. it is a must-have!

then it rained cats and dogs! me and peow walked under the rain to get his car at cineleisure, somehow i felt that's romantic. hees. then we drove to taka for our mooncake-hunt. and since we are in taka, i decide to window-shop in zara. took some pics in the fitting room to show peow then there i go spending money again (2nd last piece). :D i really love that top! good that peow shared the same liking as me.

2008-08-31T19:30:00.012+08:00

my graduation :)

thanks qi for that lovely carebear and card! :) dont forget our pact! our studio photo in two years' time!

2008-08-24T12:45:00.007+08:00

now right here at this minute, sandra's emotion is rushing through in her CRAZILY.

reading ling's blog, her happiness influences me. i can feel her bliss. her distant love has guided people to fight for your onceinalifetimeTRUElove. proud of you bestie! suddenly i want to meet up with her so much! so i texted her to meet later. she should be shocked by my date on a sundayyyy.

the past one week, i realised one thing. i'm getting greedier and more ambitious. with my sales figures as per now, i should be satisfied but i'm surprised that i am not. i must curb on that if not i can foresee sufferings. looking on my figures now, actually i'm working to my target :)

22nd August 2008: his&hers 49th month together.
a present that was totally unplanned for. a cyma watch for him. one glance at the watch, i know it will look great on my dearest's wrist. it's just so HIM. its watch face was claimed to be unscratchable unless you try it with a diamond. the minute i placed the present on his hand, he thought it was a porcelain cup. zzzzz. he did not express his loves for the watch but i know he will treasure it.

DARLING I LOVE YOU.
and this is just an understatement.

love is poisonous.
we all know how deadly it could be
still, we are willing to be poisoned
without knowing what future may bring

LOVE.
an ambiguous search for antidote.

all these I know.
because i was poisoned
yet saved.

2008-08-24T12:30:00.004+08:00

let's walk down my memory lane for the past one week...

2008-08-10T16:36:00.004+08:00

osky: good luck! hear good news that you've gotten the job soon!

ling: i'm always supportive of what you do because that's your choice :) happy that everything has got in place for you already.

gi: ;P i'm really too lazy to give an answer to those questions but i think w/o me answering, you should know most of the responses. study & work hard while playing harder! ;)

junie: i pray that you get into the same cluster as me and into a good branch for a great headstart. :D

lei: belated happy birthday ger! was too busy that i delayed this birthday greeting. pardon me k! ;P hope you'll adapt well into your work environment.

qi: cope well with your tests and projects! will i still see you in your long hair the next time? hees.

2008-08-10T15:28:00.014+08:00

2008-08-10T15:16:00.004+08:00

for the past 8 over months, i guess i just had my first longest weekend rest. :D to snuggle in bed with my dear is one of the biggest luxury. although he kept emphasizing that it is super 'bo hua' to play mj for 6hours in the night yet we slept for 12 hours in the next day just to compensate the 6hours of play, i still felt very blessed.

till today, i can hardly believe my happiness can be reached so easily. or could it be the reason is him.

he can make me happy, angry and cry with just a simple word and/or action. and all these must be because of our sweet love.

with all loves,
sandra.

2008-07-26T23:05:00.002+08:00

Last sunday ended my week really well. shopping and catching up with osky and gi. osk is now back in brisbane. three weeks seem too short.

was talking on the phone with osk on sat evening for hours. and yes i've to be more optimistic towards our long distance friendship :)

now i'm waiting for ling to be back! omg lo. she is already away for so long, tell me how fast days are passing by. i can sense that age is catching up very very soon. i can hardly believe i'm turning 24 next year. it is 24! mid of twenties already. :|

i still love dreaming..

2008-07-26T22:57:00.005+08:00

2008-07-26T22:34:00.003+08:00

a week of memories...

Monday:
Pre-celebration of our 48th month anniversary. it was a simple yet romantic dinner at a grill&bar restaurant in Rochester park. the ambiance was just right. or perhaps my feelings was nicely settled into the lovey-dovey mood. now as my mind scanned back, i still can feel the love bliss we shared at the restaurant, on the car and in his room. thank you for every little things you've done for me. although i've to admit sometimes our love and my faith towards our future weakens, you did not fail to pick them up and put them into right pieces in time. i hope you will never fail doing so, never. simply, dear i just want to say you are my special one.

i gave my present first. initially he said he did not get anything and got me so disappointed. but i should have know better. i gave him a new nike tennis bag with a soft pillow that represents my heart and a card. his gift was a big surprise (because i thought it was a ring). he gave me a bvlgari pen to close more sales. thank you dear for showing your unspoken support.

Thursday:
Quarterly updates@ St James Movida for all sales staff, including mass and premier. I felt really uptight when i know i've to go up to receive my award certificate. This recognition gives me the drive to achieve more. :) Although it's just for the first half, this top rookie pfc title means something. It will be more meaningful if it's for year 2008. And for the night, our bukit batok branch grabbed most of the limelight. Top cluster goes to West. Top branch goes to bt batok. Top pfc and top rookie pfc are from bt batok as well. We felt so proud. :D our previous bm did an excellent job, we miss his presence at branch but i believe the change is just for the better.

Friday:
A shitty day at work which i want to forget.

my colleague is going hongkong for one week with her boy. she is getting married soon and already purchased a hdb flat at sunset way. so happy for her! wonder how i will feel when it is my turn. hehe~

2008-07-06T18:17:00.007+08:00

had dinner with osky, clement, alvin and peow at sun and moon jap restaurant last evening. :) the food was, as usual, good! i love the duck's liver sushi. yummmmy! then we went to lunar for some drinks. we ordered one big bottle and i got really drunk after clearing the whole bottle before we left.

workplace had some changes. my boss is transferred to katong branch and a new branch manager is taking over. the management style is very different and still in the process of getting use to it.

many photos to put up here. bear with me :)

starting with my very love and loves. :)

2008-06-09T22:26:00.002+08:00

it was a long time since i felt really relaxed and do my shopping~ i bought a top and a few accessories. it was a super impromptu date with bestie ling. (till now still felt bad for being too straightforward in my words :|) but i've to praise her for being so disciplined! because she was not tempted to buy a single thing. our trys at zara was :)))) i love the top that i got and the maxidress that we worn! but i thought it would be a waste to keep such a dress in my wardrobe and knowing i wouldn't wear, i decided not to buy. anyways i doubt peow will like me to be in such a long dress. STILL I THOUGHT WE LOOK LIKE MERMAIDS! lol.

and to make ling felt alittle better, she had her megaburger at swensens. we had a really tasty icecream too! but couldn't find it by the time we decided to eat again.

oh yah! i went to take a look at lv's mono griet style handbag and decided not to get it in the end. it looks too bulky and not really the type that i wanted. so this time i'm gonna give it a miss. i still prefer the loewe's that i saw online. i shall not buy for the sake of buying. till i see the one i really like. :D

got really worried for my dear today. luckily he called me just now and i felt more rest assured now. :)

2008-06-01T23:47:00.003+08:00

went to ling's place last night. trying out her headbands and putting on her shades and cap. hehes. her macbook is damn good. i can't stop taking snaps! haha. ended up i got tired, started lying on her bed and almost got asleep. i love my bestie and she can be really too nice sometimes!

our eyes are huge! ;) hilarious pics and look at my pointy ears. haha

2008-06-01T23:32:00.002+08:00

temper has been getting crankier and things easily get on my nerve. unpleasant events at work affect my mood alot. all these are not good. i'm trying to adjust and be as easy-going as possible. people, do pardon and bear with me alittle; i do feel bad for these mood swings.

i miss myself being carefree and not worrying about getting late the next day. i miss having the empowerment to plan for my schedule as and when im please to. i miss doing things that are extra mile for my dear. i miss the gurl who hardly feels lethargic.

catched up with these gurls yesterday. :) i can't remember this group of people meeting early except for yesterday. usually i only see them in the evening ever since we graduated. happy for lei when hsbc is so hard to get in. praying hard that junie will get into the same cluster as me, if not into a good branch. wait till she receives the call. this time i saw a happier yuying. qiqi is still the same old cheery gurl. most envious thing of all, lei and qi are going overseas :D

2008-05-11T20:51:00.004+08:00

poew is leaving for hk this coming Tuesday and will only be back on the 23rd May. will be missing him..so much. just that he doesn't feel it because of my work.

met up with junie, jaiyme and ethan yesternight for supper-drink session. been almost two years since me and junie saw them! even when the name change from thomas to ethan we also didn't know till yesterday la! OMG right. felt so weird to call him by that name. haha so much laughters and so much to catch up! it was about 330am then we left. hope to see them really soon. never will we know that a trip to Vietnam will bring this group of people closer. knowing that they are doing well in their lives made me feel good. and junie, have a good break! :D

the girls power at work! do-re-mi~ i'm glad to have a friend at work and not just colleague. went bowling with branch people due to our west cluster bowling competition this coming Wednesday. i'm really lousy at that man. the lady (one the right of this pic) is damn good at it! her average score is more than 140 i think. counting on her already la. hees~

2008-05-04T17:55:00.003+08:00

many of you are blogging in mandarin! these chinese characters do make me feel closer to their thoughts, as though they are physically talking to me. haha but all of them seem to type better than they speak :X

every sunday (since dont know when) has been declared as an official stayhome&belazygirlday. just want to enjoy the luxury to slack and nua~ at home.

started a saving plan with peow! thinking of the lump sum of money we need to save for our future, i will go OMG, how to save sia! one fine evening, we discussed and began our plans to working towards our common goal. :D

nowadays i find that 7days a week is totally insufficient! work alone can drain my 5.5days away. work has been tough and now instead of 5 sales staff, our branch has one more new member! life's gonna get tougher and i need to be more alert and more aggressive, if necessary. :|

now that i'm working, i'm still unsure of what i really want out of myself in the next few years' time. working in a bank makes me more practical than ever. in a way or another, it says being poor is pathetic in this worse-than-practical world and worst of all, it does not earn a bit of sympathy. working right here also teaches me how to be hypocritical. smile even when the most hideous person is infront of you. i've also learnt how ironically people who love to speak loud and rude as if they are the greatest are usually the smallest fry but they are also the ones you can't afford to offend if you are praying for peace.

whatever that is happening, i'm glad that i'm still who i am. :)

2008-04-23T21:57:00.002+08:00

couldn't stand my hair any longer! went to dye a darker colour which makes my hair alot healthier and somehow, the hairstylist cut my Cleopatra hairstyle again. i'm thinking of straightening it to make it look neater ;)

met up bestie ling to shop around in town and we went trying clothes :)) that flora skirt she wore was beautiful! and that white jacket! her taste is expensive, with not a single doubt!

2008-04-13T22:24:00.003+08:00

my brother is now in ns. the day he left, i miss him. and he misses us too. never thought he will send us those sms. :D

and my lifestyle is getting unhealthy. the stress is created by myself. ;| this transition period is all about adaptation. my oh my~

met up with ying last fri and mel this fri. :) whilst meeting mel, i really cant stand my hair anymore. she suggested to tie up my hair, which really looks neater and younger. im gonna do something to my hair next sunday. im thinking of dyeing either black or dark red and trim my hair. im considering about doing soft-rebonding.

2008-03-23T16:04:00.003+08:00

will always need her to be around. :)

and have not seen qi for a very LONG TIME! coming friday shall be the day. and also ying! i've not seen her for agesss!

2008-03-23T15:54:00.005+08:00

my branch outing at dragonfly! :D drank so much and got really really high. thank goodness that my dear came and fetch me despite the unearthly timing.

something to nag on! ling is goin on prague (a place that i didnt know it has exist :X) this july! im gonna miss her though it is still quite sometime away....

2008-03-11T20:51:00.005+08:00

last month was my first month receiving my commission. :D felt really motivated. i hope i can continue to do even better.

took graduation picture with peow at a studio on saturday. the people there said me and peow have couple face wor. hahha really happy to hear that while i'm full of doubt to hear such statement. :P

went to peow's ah ma's birthday dinner and took photo with this cute little gurl who adores me. haha she is supposed to be really shy but although that was our first meetup she wasnt scare of me. instead she will initiate to talk to me and come close to me. :) just so cuteeeeeeeeee~

and last sunday peow's sister flew to hongkong to start her career there for two years. i dont know if her decision is right but definitely it is a new learning curve. such departure scene involves tears and even though i am not so emotionally engaged with his sister, i also teared upon seeing auntie and her crying. i cant take such emotional scene.

2008-02-24T22:23:00.002+08:00

now listening to the song: way back into love.

inside me, i dont feel good. the reason for that i believe people who know me well enough will know the answer. though i'm still struggling and hanging on as strong as possible, i can feel the drain deep inside me.

to the someone who has stood by me all these while, i thank you for believing in me more than i do. for the faith you give me, i wont give up. at least i know even if i stumble, i know you will be there to hold me and never letting me to fall too hard.

i cant say more but i truly love you and need you this whole lifetime.

2008-02-22T19:31:00.004+08:00

had a really sweet and love-filled birthday. and everything wouldnt be this sweet without peow doing all those sweet things. he gave me a agnes b wallet for my birthday. the sweet gesture starts with him turning up at my doorstep in the midnight with a birthday cake and red rose. then the next morning, to my biggest surprise, while i was rushing to work since i'm already alittle late, he was at my carpark. let me tell you guys, i've waited for him to appear at my carpark like a surprise since the first day i was with him and finally this wish of mine came true on my 23rd birthday. :)) he came much earlier than 8am because he thought i would leave earlier according to the time i usually tell him ;P hees. he came with homecooked noodles and two red eggs and white rose. for the things he has done for me, i decided to treat him to dinner. muacks i love him.

osky is now back in brisbane. gonna miss her and have to wait till june/july before she is back again. :)

photos taken at gi's cny house visit. :) shun bian celebrate for these two feb babies.

2008-02-10T20:29:00.001+08:00

met up with ling jh osk clement benny and a special guest from hk! gi's friend, jinlong, who was our one day tour guide. HAHA. peow bumped into him at clark quay and since we are all meeting there, he joined us at cafe iguana. thereafter, we clubbed at mos. many indians and malays there lo. and the gender ratio, which was obviously the men were overpowering. haha and ling's trip at mos was good. a frenchman picked her up and sports teacher lo! :) good catch!

2008-02-10T19:39:00.001+08:00

most pictures were taken by my brother's nokia E65. the resolution is not too bad leh! :P

2008-02-09T18:58:00.001+08:00

chinese new year 2008.

a blessed one. a year to remind myself my brothers are all as tall or even taller than me. a year that i realise my parents are really getting old yet sweeter at the same time :) a year to remind myself i'm truly blessed with my family and my dearest him.

watched two movies with my family. fanny wong's and stephen chow's ones. my mother enjoys alot. :))

and yesterday peow went kbox with my family. a fun-filled and love-filled day. :)

2008-02-02T15:03:00.000+08:00

oh yea! im done with all the photos uploading. :)

good times always pass fast. WHY. work is tough but i must survive through.