Friday, December 31, 2004

Make a guess what time san reach home last night.

It's 4am in the morning!

Thomas brudder + Jaiyme + Junie + San3
Met at holland V and thom drove us to west coast macdonalds to chill..
Woooo..
It's great to talk about anything and everything with them.
So happie to have met thomas!!!
Had been such a long while since we really talk. :)
Junie and I finally put into his hand the belated birthday pressie *since feb*
It can even be his next year's advance birthday pressie :x
hee..

Damn thing!
Left my digital cam in thom's car, so no photos of them..
*disappointed*
There's always a next time.. ^-^

I'm so tired now.. *yawns*
Think I'm gona get some more rest before going out later..

Laters.

san signs off. 1:52 PM
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Thursday, December 30, 2004

Karen's sleeping in my room like a log!
Haha..Just finish our storyboard printing work.
The rest shall leave it to tomorrow or even later =p
how lazy are we huhhhh.. *ooOops*

He was deceived by my superior lying skill!
Keke..Nothing grave. No worries :)
Just led him into believing I'm at home and not somewhere near his place waiting for him.
I'm astonished to hear him saying that "thought you will be giving me a surprise.."
Couldn't find a clue.
Something that I've done exposed my next move??
Or perhaps he knows me 80% inside 20% out.

Proud of myself finally.
For once he really thought I'm gonna disappoint him
And the very next minute, he sees me right infront of him.

Mesmerising in his genuine smile.
Seeing him so cheery when he saw me, the unspoken happiness is well-kept in my heart.

Today's programme lines up one after another.
First, he sent me home.
Then, karen came my place for itp project.
Later, going town to get somebody's birthday pressie.
Junnie meeting me for dinner.
Last it will be at holland village with thomas bro to do some catching up.

Woah~~
Tomorrow I'll sure be very tired.
Going to jb in the morning.
Back by 6pm plus to meet the sptc peeps at bedok to ecp for dinner.
Then heading for chinablack's 'Warehouse' for countdown.
Hmmm..what's next..
Shall decide tomorrow bahh..

2005
Fresh beginning

san signs off. 2:20 PM
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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Came up with a blank mind.

Updated my photo-links.



My head is empty.

However, not enough to wash away the keen-ness in missing you.




Wonder how many notes have you read..

Wonder if you got every meaning I'm trying to convey..

san signs off. 8:21 PM
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Sunday, December 26, 2004

WOOOSH~

Two days away from home.
Home Sweet Home san!
Miss everyone at hoME!

Gave each of them a small pressie for Christmas before I left the house in the X'mas eve's morning.
Just something small for them to feast their tummies. ^-^

X'mas Eve at work was SLACKish~
*obvious right* =P
My 2bosses and 2 other colleagues each gave San&Karen a pressie!
And we exhanged.. ..
Ohhhh..That's totally sweeeettt
For the first time, I could sense the X'mas season-Feel in the air!
And the guy colleague, who went NS, visited us too!
Karen&I rushed a x'mas card for him and ran down before he left.
Godddd..kekee..that's so funny if you were to see it.
Then our bosses treated us to KFC&PizzaHut. :)

Met benny at Outram Park's MRT platform.
Went to school for tennis.
Didn't play much actually.
More into discussing what to do later in the evening.
So we set with Jack's Place @ Bras Basah for dinner.
Went to Daph's house to bathe..
Busy dressing up that both of you were late. *hEe, what's new*

More turn-ups.
Daph Me who were the latest! *oOoopSss*
Alvin who were second to us
Ling who was the EarliEST
JinTong who was the second to ling
Joyce rushed down in a cab!
Don brought a GURL-fren along.
Benny JieHao Donavan came from Clementi after a pool session.
Out of a surprise, Benedict joined us too!
That's all for the participants @ jack's place.

The menu was darn sucky!
Only one recommended xmas eve's package which costed $38.90++ if I remember correctly.
So pathetically, Ling&Me&Joyce shared one.
The entire table only ordered four sets when there were 12 of us!
*embarassed*
Keke..But who cares!
Daph said we are the customers.We have the RIGHT!
Haaa.. And guess what daring San did this time??!!
I asked a waitor's number for ahEmAHEM..00?
Shan't call name out. *thank me guRL!*
Everyone burst out laughing non-stop.
We were crazy!

-memorable part-
We toasted with glasses of plain water.

SPTC friends forever!

that's awesome!
Feeling great at that point..

Don&his gurl-fren left.
*Joyce left to meet her bf*

We walked down to take a train to Cineleisure.
On the way there, all of us were like crazy-dOs!
Greeting people on the street MERRY XMAS!
So you can imagine how many eyes were staring at us UP and DOWN
haha..
Off the train, we put on the xmas hats *jack's place complimentaries*
So it caught more attention!
People greet us and we greet them~~
On the street, people spraying white foam all over the PEOPLE!
That's what I call x'Mas season~~~

My dearest sp joined us at cineleisure.
Went to TCC to give my beloved JunIE x'mas pressie!
I made it myself~~~ *proud*
Hope she'll love it and keepp it.. :)
*1st person for the surprise*
Surprisingly, she got something for me too. *only knew in the morning*
Thanks GURL!

Kpool!
Osky&clement got in!
They just had their romantic dinner at Chjmes!
Wore something similar *couple wear huh~~*

ticktockticktock.. ..
XMAS!!!!!

Not long from then, some gotta leave.
Donavan Alvin Daph Ben Benny left.
So Osk Clement Mi Sp Ling JieHao were the sole survivor? =P
Went to Cuppage for KTV!
Luckily there wasn't as crowded.
'coz guess it's alittle too ULU.
Cost so exxxxxxxxpensivvveeee $180+.
Once a year so let's pass it.

Headed home from there.
Sp sent Jiehao and Ling home.

By the time we reached his place, we were like ZOMBIE.
In his room, he was like..
"na..mai gei ni de"
Meaning this is for you.
Goshhh..Didn't even thought he would get something for me.
Though I wished for it..
So It was such a delight for me. *heeeeeeeeeeeee*
When he was bathing, I tied a x'mas sock behind his door.
He was back, but he missed it!
So only saw it the next day.
He was surprised to see it I thinkkkk. ^-*
Inside was filled with candies and a heartie silver-wired box of .. ... .... *secret*
Added on with a xmas cardie.
Hope he would love it too.
*2nd person for the surprise*

Paid a visit at the NUH.
Seeing a delicate him by the gurl's side melts my heart.

We went to breeks for dinner.
Didn't want him to spend so much..
Still, a great dinner!
With a company of a tiny cockroach on the table crawling for survival!
*dearie you remember?*
Wanted to watch KungFu but the queue at Lido was toooooo lonnnnnngg.
So rented a VCD at Serene Centre.
Back at his place, trying to focus and get the jokes.
But I can't seem to find it funny =P

Okay, alot of happy things over these two days.
Smiling overly..

Memories foundated an unforgettable X'mas eve & X'mas.
It's too memorable.
Especially it made us back together like before.
Thanks sky above.

I Love You honey

san signs off. 8:49 PM
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Thursday, December 23, 2004

Hmm..
Busy busy busy
Tired tired tired

Forced my contact lens into my eyes for the past 2 days.
That would say how tired I am.
How late I went into bed.
*so not disciplined san*

--updated yesterday yet no time to continue and publish--

Went to bed soooooo late last night.
Left with no choice but to put on my specs to work.
Later on then have my contact lens on, else think my eyes couldn't take it.. ..
Still needa look good through the night *heeEsss*

Rushed on x'mas pressie wrappings.
Busy filling those x'mas cardies with heart-felt words to my friends too.
Prepared a surprise for 2 person-S!
They will like it, I tell myself. =P

Today's Christmas Eve!
Having a half-day. ^-*
Poor qiqi and ying have to work on sucha day. *sayang*

1pm should be able to get out from Chinatown.
Back in school for tennis at 2-3pm.*excited*
Okay, then bathe ^-^ *smeelllll good till then*
Dinner with tennis peeps
Joyce Jiehao Benny Nana Daph Don Alvin PLUS san3!
Honey will join us after work which will be at 10 I reckon.
Chill outtttt...
KTV session at 11pm @ Orchard PartyWorld. ***cost a bomb***
Osky & Clement will join us for this FUN. -can count doWN in the lounge-
Wooo..

Proudly presented by:

Organiser San3
Co-ordinator Benny

That's so braggyy!

My Christmas wishhhh...

SHhhhhhh.. *secret*

san signs off. 1:01 PM
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Sunday, December 19, 2004

As if I've been dreaming.

Sweet dream or Nightmare.
Can't define.

A gurl with her group of yearOne's friends sat outside SP Upper Tennis courts.
Waiting for their turns for SP Tennis Novice'02/03.
That was the very first time she met this guy with the other tennis club committee members'02/03.
Her friends & herself was recruited in as next batch's committee members.
She became his secretary.
He was her vice-president.

This batch forms a group of good friends who got together b'coz of their passion for tennis.
As days passed, he & her became very good friends.
He trained her & another gurl hard.
He was their shi-fu, so called.
Though they are always shooting at each other
Though they are always suan-ing each other
Though they have never stop squabbling
they were close to each other as friends.
Not talking on the phone.
Seldom message each other too.
Still, there was a connection somewhere.

Chalet or just any gatherings.
Everything just seemed too pretty fun.
'coz all of them are fun-wreckers!
Playing tennis of course is the common reason of meeting ups.

The gurl was attached.
The guy has his own affections for someone still.

Out of nowhere.
Out of somewhere perhaps.
Now
She is his gurlfriend.
He is her boyfriend.

Things were beautiful beyond words initially.
Obstacles began to pop up to test how strong can this miraculous got-together takes.
Overcame one.
Overcame two.
Override a few more.
Got stuck now.
Stagnant progress she would say.

This gurl reads the bottom of her heart.
She wants to be there for him.

The guy speaks straight from his mind.
Sometimes he wishes to be alone.
To be away from all noises and be quiet on his own.

The gurl feels redundant in the guy's life.

The guy doesn't know how to express himself.

The gurl is trying too hard to understand him.

The guy is putting too little effort in the relationship.
b'coz he said he has alot more other stuff to be concerned with.

This gurl pray for two things.
She wants the little gurl who matters alot to him to wake up and be safe & sound.
She wants the guy to be happie forever like how he was in the past.

Her little white x'mas wish.

san signs off. 9:02 PM
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Thursday, December 16, 2004

MISS HIM~
MiSssssssssss him..
mISssssing him..
suffocates myself with all those miSssmISssMIsssss..

His shadow fades away.

What's on your mind?
Can you please enlighten me?

san signs off. 8:22 AM
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Tuesday, December 14, 2004

erm~
Howz sansan today?

Good..

Seeing all my classmates and JOYCEEEEE!!!!!
God..I really miss this little gurl.
Hope she's doing fine, she looks pale.
Seeing my dearest JUNIE!!
God, she changed her hp 'coz her old one was drowned by her!
Kekee..She's not fated with waterbottles~~ *wink*
Miss her alot.. ..
And yingying!HEez,though didn't catch up with her much..
Seeing her makes my heart feel.. hMmm.. just simply GUDz
Her smile & all those funny incidents.. hahaa.. :)
ANd qiqi!
She's of course on my list too!
One gud fren of mine whuz always with me in town whenever I'm feeling down.
Loveeeee her ash-purplish baggie!!
Such a coincidence which I only realise NOW. =P
LEI~~~
Lurve her purplish cardigen!
Hee, she's one gurl who's on my 'missing' board.

Hope her dear & herself will undergo this hard time well well!

Lastly, I saw EUNICE!
Imagine how happie I was when she came outside T2147.
Really missssssss her sssoooooooo much.
Miss those days when we chitchat like no tomorrow.
On the phone.
Face to face.
One friend who I can't afford to lose.

Okay, today is not too bad.
I'm controlling myself pretty well.
Restricting my thoughts from going any wilder.
Ceasing all saddening thoughts to process any further.

I know I still love him alot.
My only request is he will spare more thoughts for me.
Okay, don't wanna go into this topic.

San~ You're one strong gurl.
Brace up!
Whatever happens, it shouldn't change you.

san signs off. 10:01 PM
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Someone is disappearing.
Taking away something with him as he leaves..

Very much I wanna msg him to say how much I miss him.
I can't do that.
Very much I wanna remain in rest of his life.
Not for me to decide.

People always attempt to fathom what's on their mind.
Thought you've understand them well enough.
Sometimes it's not you who can't comprehend their thinkings.
It's that you know them too well.
Too well that you're getting confused.
They are complicated.
You can't seem to differentiate who is who now.

Not hearing from him for a day.
Torturing me..
Promised myself not to cry and I reach my goal.
Closest to almost a stranger over a night.

Really wish to msg him now.
Telling him he's so much needed.
But still, I can't.

san signs off. 8:41 AM
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Monday, December 13, 2004

I'm missing him terribly.
Don't dare to think about his..

Just now saw his msn nick pop up, wonder it's him or it's his bro..
'coz not awhile the person immediately log off.

Yearning for him so much.
Can't seem to stoppp

Knowing I'll be so devastated without him, however, that's not of the most matters.

What I want?
I want him.

But why is he so selfish towards me.

san signs off. 11:36 AM
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Hoping he'll be reading this.
Came up jsut to let him know what I'm upset with.
Seeing your message, my heart has died.
Eyes are also getting too lazy to cry anymore.

I was terribly affected by your hurtful words.
Can't adapt to your sudden blow hot and blow cold.
Whenever things are not going fine for you, no matter what I do, it seems to be ridiculous.

Maybe you've not realised, then let me awaken you with my words if you happen to read this.
I was not sad just b'coz of your limited love.
I was sad why am I thrown around by your monotonous tone with words which pierce straight into my heart.
You didn't realise it's so darty?
I don't know.
I'm tired to even give a second thought.
Perhaps you could try to recall everything you've commented on me these 2days.
I've never thought a friend who has been with me almost 2years, now becoming my dearest honey is thinking of me in sucha way.
It's the most hurting thing you could ever think of and even say it to me.
It's really the most hurting....

Once you said you'll give your all to this r/s...
Once you assure me with all the happiness...

Once..

Actually I've expected your response.
Do whatever you wish.
'coz I'm really tired.
Trying so hard to see your smile.
All to no avail.

Have been thinking..
Our get together perhaps is just happen to be
at the right time.
at the right place.
with the right atmosphere.
Yet.
I'm not the right one.

I really try hard.
Even harder than I could ever imagine.
Cried more tears than ever in my life.
For all subsequent nights.

Loving a person is so beautiful.
Loving you is something I've learnt.
Thanks for letting me know what's love.
It's wonderful to know who you really love.
It's so painful to know the one you love isn't reciprocating.
It's even poisonous when the one you love doesn't understand what you've been doing for him.

Never did I thought of asking for your return.
Never.

san signs off. 8:18 AM
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Sunday, December 12, 2004

Your Beauty lies
in Innocence. Pure, sweet and child-like. You most
likely look far younger than
you are and your smile would brighten up anyone's
day. Seen as naive and
sheltered, you can be ignorant at times, but for
the most part, it's simply your
reputation preceding you. You are most likely
rather aware of the realities of
life. You are extremely good natured and
trustworthy. By the same token, you are
a bit too trusting. Be careful, few are as honest
and open as you. You might
seem girlish still with a love of dresses, ponies,
and things most might deem
you "too old for". But this doesn't
bother you. You enjoy your youth and are
going to make it last. After all you are only as
old as you feel.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Light, Wind Animal: Kitten Color:
White, Pink, Pastels Song:
Beautiful Soul by Jesse McCartney
Expression: Innocent Smile

Gemstone:
Diamond Mythological Creature: Unicorn
Planet:
Moon Hair Color: White Eye Color:
Silver

san signs off. 7:01 PM
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What a weekend.
Somehow san3 has been facing 4 walls in her room for these 2days.
Washing her face with those vulnerable teardrops.
Night. And day. And Night. Day again.
Her eyes refused to budge.
Now turning swollen.
Hooking onto those things he had done and said lately, how can she take it, she wondered.

She is avoiding.
She looks weary.
As if she hasn't been enjoying her sleep in the night for ages.
A helpless self who can only confide into her mum her brother now.
Pinning alittle hope to see comfort in their consoling words.
They are the only ones who treasure her and truly care for her.

san signs off. 6:30 PM
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Saturday, December 11, 2004

Time is bombed up with a speedy-rocket.
It flew past you even before you could try to cast your hands on it.
We can never catch up with time.
It is always ahead of us.
So cherish every moment, including now when ya reading this!

One month is over.
I've been with Olive for a month old.
Get together with Karen my dearest new fren just as long.
Miss all my freNS!
Esp JUNIE! OSKY! NANA! JIEHAO! MONY! YING! LAINE!
All of them has been lost touch.................
Though did meet up with mony & that toopid jh *oOOops* for awhile during meeting and playing, it doesn't seems substantial.
Oh yah! almost i forgot..
My QiQI! ANd LeiLEi!
Has lei got over with the NTU-fear?
Qiqi must be very buSy huh~
Anyways, I just miss them all..

School starting soon..
Projects gonna pile up again!

Having DMS -During MS.
Having mood upturnS&downtuRns.
Crying in the night for apparent reasons which are not supposed to exist anymore.
Work is getting stressful.
Managing it pretty well I guess.
Transforming it all into laughters.

This week didn't meet up with sp often.
2times this week.
Signs of having lesser when school begins.

Hmm.
Christmas.
Looking forward.
But no idea whata look forward to.

Next thUrs ying's birthday.
Got her something, wonder will she like it.
HEez.
Gurl, miSsYOU!
Your darl will be just fine.
As well as your celebration.
As long as he's by your side, it should be the happiest thing already right.
:) *smilEs*

Things haven't been going fine for me.
Pisceans are not emotionally strong.
We are wishy-washy when comes to such topics.
That's us.
Take it or leave it.

PisceanS RulEz!

Piscean loves a cancerian.
The love is overflowing.

san signs off. 11:51 AM
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Tuesday, December 07, 2004

Okay, let's blog before I leave for work.

Today Mi&my supervisor is meeting up a client.
I clinched it!! keke..
About advertising on Trends Publication, a magazine.
Cool~~

Thinking to get a white long-sleeve collar top at chinaSquare which is so near my office.
It is totally sweet! :)
Should I or should I nottttt..
Wanna get a pair of slip-ons or shoes at its basement.
Hmmmm....

Came up here for a motive.
To mark those beautiful footsteps of yesternite memories.
Nothing fascinating.
But it just feels too gud.
Perfert moment may not always be the case.
However, whenever I realise it's flawless
There's always a You in the picture.

Oh yah, how could I forget??!
Karen&I went to Kbox at cineleisure last sunday.
Supposingly, we were supposed to meet at 3pm.
Heez, *guilty* I reached home only at 10plus in the morning.
So by the time I got myself fresh, time is seriously running out.
Pushed it till 345pm.
*karen should be guilty* =p She was late!
Haha, in the end we started singing only at 445pm I guess.
BUT
That night was great!
1st, we sang well.
2nd, we had ultra fun, kept on laughing.
3rd, think we've about the same 'taste' in songs.
4th, the session extended itself for 2hours!
We were to leave at 7pm, however since no one stopped us..
of course we CONTinUEd! hee~
Only left at 9plus pm~!! *Big Grin*
Karen, more ktv! And you owe me a shopping date yah~~

Okay, explaining why I was only home at 10am..
Saturday night, Mi&Sp and of course his whole family attended his cousin's wedding.
So nice of them to offer 4complimentary rooms at Meritus Mandarin.
So the both of us had a room to ourselveS.
Exclusively to us!
Had coffee express 3 in the morning, then slept for not long
Woke up for breakfast which was definitely FOC.
Heez, what a bargain huh~
Nothing beats a romantic night.
That night I felt so much doted by him.
He seems to be showing his concern alot more that night
And from that night onwards..
*good sign*

okay peeps, update yourselves too!
I wanna know more~!!~

san signs off. 8:00 AM
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Monday, December 06, 2004

Yeaps, you bet. I'm one confusing self.
San3 has always been contradicting.
Accept or reject.
Attack or retreat.
LOVE or LET GO.

That's so me if you were to look beyond my shield.

Concealing the real side of you is sucha torture to endure.
And only here there's free expression.

My bosses went for lunch.
Me and Karen are not yet hungry.
Doing some updating of database, gota stop for now and resume after my break.

So tired.
Haven't been catching enough sleep over several weekends.
2days of rest never seems to be sufficient.
'coz i keep asking for more! Heez
Whatever it is, I'm back at workzone again.

Missing my honey. He's playing tennis with ronny now if I'm not wrong.
Miss him.
I miss him.
"Tell him I miss you!"
"Yes! I miss you dearie!"

san signs off. 1:01 PM
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